Ariel

So I have been contemplating whether to restart my blog and here I am with the first post to restart it all. I guess the reason for doing so is to have some sort of memory raising my little girl, Ariel.

So far, she is almost 3 months or 3 months. I can never bother to count the number of weeks that she has been on this earth. Yea and apparently babies have to use the week count for their age instead of the normal month count that we adults use. I was never good in those monthsaries much less counting the weeks. Heck, I sometimes have difficulty remembering my age! Ok i drift...

My thoughts as a new father? Gosh, where do I start!
It's been tough, like worst than BMT tough. With BMT, you see the light at the end of the 3 month tunnel. Some ppl think, BMT ok what! But my BMT as a unfit and fat soldier was tough! As for the baby, it's supposedly honeymoon period with her cause she's not running around or constantly irritating you with "are we there yet?". Right now is just feed, sleep, feed, play awhile, sleep. All within your "control". Of cos you cant really control a crying baby. But it has already turn my life upside down.

I stop playing aoccer, I stop going gym, I sleep lesser, I feel lethargic all the time, my arms get sore, my tummy is getting bigger, I meet my friends less, I have to work at 3am to finish my work..  I mean, sure, stop going to the gym may sound like an excuse, but it's really really really hard to do so. When my mum takes care of Ariel, then I take the time to rest or I'm super lethargic. Or when I feel ready to go gym, them Ariel starts to be cranky and refuse to sleep. There's never a right time as with everything in this world. But I'm really trying, so lets ser how it goes.

To aspiring parents, I can tell you that you need to be prepared to be consumed by your own flesh and blood.

And now is 4am, I need to go sleep, kthxbye!

Personality Test

Primary - Director

Secondary - Builder

About your personality

You are an independent thinker who builds theories and approaches problems with an analytical, exacting, systematic and resourceful mind. And with your persistence, logic and determination, you tend to find innovative solutions to complex problems. You are particularly good with technical problems, those of mechanics, engineering, math, medicine, accounting, music or other "rule based" systems.
Although you enjoy being part of a stable, secure social network, you easily spend time alone, pursuing your own projects and goals at your own speed, according to your own rules. You can focus your attention to the exclusion of all around you. And you have a deep sense of autonomy.
You are a private person; you contain your emotions. You are also calm, efficient, quick to make decisions and remarkably self-disciplined. Yet you have a traditional, even sentimental streak. Family is important to you and you can be very protective of those you love.

Relating to others

 Because you are ambitious, tough-minded and hardworking, your close friends admire you. In return, you can be fiercely loyal and protective of all those you love. Yet your complex personality is often hidden behind a wall of composure and logic.

Love and relationships

As a Director you admire and collect knowledge; so you want a partner with whom you can have focused, educated, and often theoretical discussions on intellectual topics-a mind mate. You are direct and tough-minded, too. So you are attracted to someone who can complement you-someone who is verbally graceful, who weighs alternatives carefully and listens actively, and has well-honed social skills. Because you contain your emotions, you also gravitate to a mate who is warm and emotionally expressive. Yet you do not like people who engage in public displays of emotion, showing lack of self-containment. Because you have difficulty tolerating controlling people, you need a mate who is flexible, even indecisive. You particularly admire a partner who is self-sufficient. And you like a mate who is eager to help you make a stable home and maintain your public, business, and social ties.

With director as your primary type, you can be:
• Decisive	• Competitive
• Focused	• Self disciplined
• Analytical	• Independent
• Logical

With builder as your secondary type, you can be:
• Traditional	• Patient
• Social	• Community Oriented
• Loyal	• Orderly
• Dependable

Things directors need to be aware of:

1. You are susceptible to intense anger when you feel hurt, disappointed or frustrated.
2. Your ambition can lead to workaholism.
3. You can be impatient with chit chat and routine social engagements.

The types:

The Builder
Chemical in charge: Serotonin (associated with sociability and feelings of calm)
Personality: Calm, managerial, conscientious, home-oriented but social
Best match: The Explorer
Worst match: The Director

The Negotiator
Chemical in charge: Estrogen (associated with intuition and creativity)
Personality: Imaginative, sympathetic, socially skilled, idealistic
Best match: Good with all types!
Worst match: None

The Explorer
Chemical in charge: dopamine (associated with curiosity and spontaneity)
Personality: Risk-taking, spontaneous, curious, adaptable
Best match: The Builder
Worst match: The Director

The Director
Chemical in charge: testosterone (associated with independence and rational thinking)
Personality: focused, inventive, daring, logical, direct
Best match: The Negotiator
Worst match: The Builder 

From http://www.chemistry.com

First of the new year

My first post from my iPhone! Awesome!

Happy new year to all my readers! The few of you..

Another year has passed.. I remember this time last year I was reflecting on my past year.. I know I haven do it yet, and I'll probably do it soon.. I guess?? Haha.. Where got time to blog now?!? Now relationship more impt leh..

I'm glad.. This is the year when I can start off happy in a relationship again.. Sure feels like I can face this world and everything it has to throw at me and nothing is gonna bring me down! That's how awesome being in a relationship is!

This year will truly be a year of new beginnings.. A new relationship.. My new dream job.. New responsibilities.. And even possibly a new CG! Haha.. Yup, damn cui.. I just changed about a year ago, but things have developed to a stage where it's becoming unbearable to be in this CG.. More on this if I have the time next time..

Let's just say even Christians are not perfect.. And it's really gross conduct that I'm witnessing in this CG.. Certain CG members of cos.. The correct word is flaky.. These members really use words like, 'God', 'holy spirits', 'bible' very loosely.. Not talking about new born Christians who foolishly acts very holy but actually members who are in this church for quite awhile and even the main helper who acts very flaky and hypocritical.. Is really gross..

Is like imagine people going all spiritual on you over what your favorite food is.. Imagine you like steaks alot and suddenly people start telling you that the holy spirit told them that you don't really like beef at all.. Or start quoting you verses abt how you shld stay strong and not waver in the face of eating beef.. Im not exaggerating one bit at all, it is that ridiculous if you hear what I know..

Truth be told, I'm not that affected by it since they are not even considered my friends.. I really only care what
My family and true friends aka Tuesday dinner gang thinks.. But it's just gross knowing it comes from a CG since its suppose to be more 'righteous' than the people of the world.. Oh well..

On a side note, I have been watching how I met your mother series all over again cos my gf just came out from her ancient cave and just started watching it after I intro-Ed her..

.........……
I know right!

She loves it now and it's okay, it's one of my favorite shows anyway, din mind catching it again.. And she has really learnt a few life lessons from the show.. For eg she now thinks its really A blessing to be in a relationship.. Awesome! I think everyone in the world must watch HIMYM.. Especially couples.. It honestly helps to show you who you shouldn't Marry in life..

Alright signing off now.. Till the next update, bye!

A great finisher

Cant believe it's been a month since I last blogged.. And as always, if you're a sharp reader of me, you would already guessed or suspect what has happened to me.. Yup, I'm seeing someone now, but it's not official for a few reasons.. Yup, you can say my desire has finally come true, and yes, I'm definitely more happy than I was when I was single.. But I dun really have to explain much about my feelings now, cos you can probably just read my older posts to know how much I want this..

1 month of stuff has happened and I dun really know how to squeeze all of them in 1 post..

Let's see.... I passed all my exams this semester, which means, unofficially, I have graduated!!! My convocation is during august though, I know, WTF, but it's damn lame cos they only hold it once a year for the July intake batches, while I'm a January intake.. So gotta wait for the next intake to 'graduate' together..

So officially my next worry in life is to get a good job! Fingers cross, and really hoping hard I do get a job in the big 4 even though my chances are super slim.. It's really one of those if I do get the job, it would be a miracle kinda thing.. So I hope God's miracle will appear.. I pledge my building fund and the 100-fold blessing offering in hope of getting that jobs.. I dun really need an immediate $500 blessing cos I know if I do get the job at the big 4, I can easily clear my building fund or even earn $500.. So again, my hope is in the Lord..

Then I had reservist call-up last week as well.. Spent 4 days in camp.. Really felt like I wasted life there.. I basically did like one assignment during the whole of my 4 days there.. Which was to enter 7 pages of contact numbers to the people in my unit. Other than that, it was really just sleep in bunk, go cookhouse eat, canteen, go e-mart, slack and surf internet in office, watch shows on my iphone..

It din help that the Sgt in charge of me was the quiet kind.. It's not that my friends and I din wanna do anything.. We even went up to him a few times and asked and even requested that if anything call us.. We even gave him our tel numbers so that he could call us to do something.. But he still din really use us.. So not really our fault right.. He just choose to do everything himself.. Let him be then..

But I cant really complain since I heard stories of reservist from Jun and Matt.. And theirs is shockingly bad.. But then again, I shouldnt compared with infantry units cos they definitely would be more shiong than mine.. But then again, theirs is really too much different from mine.. My unit outfield really was damn relaxed.. But I also heard of other people who had even more relaxed reservist than mine.. Airforce reservist.. Still can stay out and do nothing much also.. So that definitely beats mine lah.. So I'm very contented with mine..

I dont think I will say the story of how I got together with my 'date' now.. The most important parts of the story are too personal to share also, so I dun see a point also.. Even my close friends dunno the whole story.. Not that I dont wanna share, but it's not my secrets to disclose.. So I cant disclose also.. So yea.. All I can say is, I may not have done the right things during the process, but what's done is done and I gotta just move on..

Kk, let me just share a quick summary.. I am dating this girl in my cellgroup who was formally engaged. After she broke off her engagement, I started dating her immediately cos we are very close friends from the start.. So yea, go ahead and make the judgements.. I'm in no position to judge either cos if I were to switch roles and stand in a viewpoint of an outsider, I'll probably think the same thing as what majority would assume as well.. And that is I am the reason why they broke off and that I ruined a relationship, third party etc..

But I guess sometimes love can be found in the weirdest places and time.. How do you even predict when you will fall in love or meet the right one? I found out the weird way..

On a lighter note, at least I can say the theory works - 'Got goalkeeper doesn't mean cannot score'.
And as Matt summed it up - 'Fwah, you got two goalkeepers also still score ah!'
Well all I can say is, I'm a great finisher..

Just Like That!

Petty man and dumb woman

It's been a long time since I last blogged..

Well, haven got a job yet.. So I'm really penniless.. Doesnt really help that it's close to end of the year so people are waiting to receive their year end bonus instead of quitting their jobs.. So yea, kinda hard to find a job now.. I mean I could, but it would be those sucky ones that I'm not willing to commit.. So what's the point really.. Not like I'm a year w/o a job now and still choosy with what I wanna work.. So i guess it's okay? hahaha..

Well, there's another reason why I'm penniless.. Oh yea, I forgot to shout out here that I passed my driving! And it's really by grace that I managed to pass.. Cos despite this being the third time, it was my worst attempt at driving test.. Like I dunno why, you're supposed to get better with practice.. But somehow it worked the opposite for me.. The more times I took the test, the bigger the pressure to pass.. So I cock up even more.. First time was almost perfect, less the safety checks.. Second was quite messed up already, but at least my circuit was okay.. This time round, I made like 2-3 attempts before parking my vehicle, and it was slanted when it was parked sumore.. Really like FAIL.. Even I was embarrassed by my own parking.. It was damn bad..

I tot that was it already, confirm fail, CONFIRM, WITH MY LIFE.. But the tester that day was not super nice, I mean he scold me after the test, like really scold.. But he still passed me nonetheless.. He din even mark me down for my numerous attempts at parking or failing to stop at the line and I'm sure many others.. Hence my theory is still right.. It all depends on the tester that day.. It almost doesnt really matter how well you drive.. True story..

Which leads me to my next story.. Penniless me.. I got into an accident just a week after I passed.. I know right, like really ultimate fail driver.. And it was my bad cos I din check my blind spot while changing lanes.. But more unfortunately for me, I banged a very petty man.. He looked like MC king but more loserish kind.. Prob the loser guy in secondary school that no one wants to mix with that's why he takes life so hard.. And his gf or wife or prostitute or whatever.. Isnt any better.. Empty vessel making the loudest noise.. She should dye her hair blond to suit her brain..

The sucky thing was, I wasnt driving my car.. I was driving my date's car.. Yup FYI, i'm dating.. That's another story to tell.. And I crashed it.. Actually it wasnt really that bad.. Basically the damage was my whole side mirror came out while the other guy had a slightly faulty side mirror which after adjusting, looks okay, no problem.. And slight spots of paint on the side mirror that was scrapped off during the accident.. Then there was also a slight dent from the impact of the hit.. He wants to claim for the whole mirror, change the whole mirror.. Then he wanna add on for allowance of car use cos he cant use the car while the car is in the workshop.. And he wanna add this and that.. Basically, he just wants to use this opportunity to get as much benefits as possible..

I'm kinda lazy to type the whole story out, but basically, I'm paying for both car damages and the total cost adds up to $650.. And my allowance is only $500.. And I'm not working.. And I just pledge building fund.. And I'm dating.. Thankfully my sis gave me alittle allowance to survive till my next allowance, which I dunno when will it be cos I really just took my $500 like this week, and like totally gave it all away already.. BEST.. If I was single, it would totally be okay.. Now dating, no $$ really like dog.. Hope God comes true for me, if not I dun see how I can fulfill building fund..