King of Winning Eleven <-- Self proclaimed

Apparently, i created some scandalous news from my last post.. And amos and matt is bugging me to say what happened.. BUT, i'll keep them in suspense.. haha!

Yesterday, service as usual and after that went to simpang with cellgroup. I dont know if that was my first time out with them or i forgot that i went out with them before.. Anyway, my cellgroup has a craze for PSP.. I believe it was kind of sudden, because when i first had my psp, i dont recall seeing so many of my cellgroup members having it..

But now, almost all the guys have it. Even amos and matt also have psp.. So my winning eleven killing spree has started!! MUHAHAAHA!! First it was abel, and next was Jesal.. The thing is, winning eleven has a profile, and it saves your previous results, and it tells you your winning percentage, average goals per match, etc. And i'm aiming for a 80% win rate.. Lack of 0.8% more.. And my camp mates refuses to challenge me because they feel i am using them to boost my record only.. So they purposely dont let me achieve that. So, i havent challenge winning eleven for awhile until yesterday..

So Beware!! The winning eleven king is on a killing spree!! Muhahaha!!!

No love ah.. No love ah..

Yesterday was my last time to book out on friday.. Hopefully, it wouldnt last for long.. Enough said..

By the time i reached home, it was already 7 at night.. And i was extremely tired.. I know i have the mentality to enjoy my book outs, but i actually slept at 9plus.. You can tell that i really aint bluffing when i said i was extremely tired.. Just when i was about to sleep, my bro told me got Man Utd's match at 245am, totally forgotten about it, and i thought to myself, "just nice, i sleep early then wake up to watch the match!". Set my alarm and was all prepared to have a good rest.

But, my phone rang at 12plus, it was Sy... She called to ask where i was and after a short conversation, we hang up.. Details of the converstation need not be revealed.. Ha! Initially, i thought i couldnt fall back to sleep because my past experience showed me that i just cant.. But in the end, i managed to sleep again.. Not long later, my phone rang again.. This time it was Jx.. He asked me if i wanted to come out and chill with him.. At first i wasnt enthusiastic about the idea because i just woke up, but once my mind "woke up", i decided to meet up because i havent met him in a while plus, i wanted to have supper..

When you have dinner in the army, and you plan to have late nights, you would definitely have supper because dinner is normally at 430pm.. Yes, it is true, 430pm.. Some people may just had their lunch during that time, some may have just woken up from their sleep, while most would be busy with school or studies.. 430pm..

So i met him up, took his ride down to Tampines Block 400+ to have some muslim food.. He had coke, while i had ice horlick for drinks, and we both ate maggi goreng.. Honestly, standard of food there, not bad..

So here's the thing.. Whenever i meet jx up to relax, we actually talk about the problems we face.. Mostly is army, friends, family,money and relationships, i mean the usual stuff right.. But somehow, talks with him really makes me think alot.. Sometimes the things he says helps me to reflect on the things i'm doing, sometimes it helps me realise that my situation is very blessed and other times, i just dont agree on his point of view..

Like NS, i think i am rather blessed with my vocation.. Not a "chiong sua" unit yet also not a clerk that face paperwork everyday.. Sorry Amos, no offence to you, but i really cant imagine doing 2 years of paperwork for the army.. Maybe if it's a job outside, i would still consider, because of the freedom, if you dont like it, just quit.. That is why NS people can get depressed, not the "chao keng" type, but really depressed.. But we all face our difficulties, like how i cant book out on friday night anymore.. And that's all i complain about now.. Other than that, my stay in life is really good.. You know the saying, "it's not about the place, it's about the company", it is true.. Because when you stay in, the people around you is your friends, your outside friends cant help you.. And when you live your life week in week out with these group of guys, even if we get "sai kang" or really "chiong sua" task to do, it's still fun because you get to do it with so many other people.. When we play, we play together, when we complain, we complain together, when we feel injustice, we feel it together.. And that is why i am blessed..

In Jx case, he just got caught in the hierachy of army.. Army is a place where rank rules.. It's not about the age or the education or even inconsideration of basic common sense, it'all all about the ranks.. Offend any commander can get charge, never eat finish food can charge also, bring bananas back to company line can get charge.. They really play dirty.. No chance to even defend yourself.. That is why they say SAF means "serve and fuck off".. It's not "Enjoy yourself while you're here".. The correct attitude in army is really "do your job, dont complain, dont offend anyone and lastly suck thumb". Army is a vicious cycle.. They offer big money, and people sign on for the money, not willing to commit to making the army better.. All they care is the money, the promotion, the results.. They would do anything to get that, that's why NSF like us are the worst.. We only get a pathetic sum of allowance and everyday still have to do stuff that would suit a banglahs job description.. Shall not go on any further..

I must stop be so judgemental about people's action.. I have no right to do it.. All of us are not perfect.. Keep reminding myself that..

Lastly, end with my fav song from Robbie Williams.. She's the one

Early in the morning run..

Damm you Jerry.. U are killing me.. U really think you damm fit ah.. Or did u think that the laws of rest did not apply to u? Or maybe the Z monster level not high enuf for u ah?!?!

I guess my body is screaming that to me.. Sleeping a max of 3 hrs before going back to camp n train.. I guess the benefit of booking out really got into my head till i aint taking care of my body.. The last time i check, my body keeps failing my during physical activities.. Signs of giddiness just doesnt send a big enuf warning to me..

But this lifestyle aint for long cos supposedly nxt leave i get to clear is last week of dec.. So a lil punishment to this frail body shld be ok.. I'm a soldier man!

I realise i like to insist also.. Maybe at the right time, it is effective.. Not always will end up with no happiness.. Just maybe..

The past, present and future..

Everyday is a rainy day.. How shit is that.. Im on leave den the weather liddat, i dont see it happening in camp!! Would be nice to skip some training cos of the weather you know!!

Sat was rainy before svc and in de end, went down svc quite late.. And aft tat, it was the classic way of going simpang.. All no bike cos raining, so sit bus.. haha.. Aft that, almost joined ade and the rest at airport, but it was close to impossible liao, cos airport aft 12 no transport back liao, and it was 11 when we called them.. Luckily nvr join them also, in de end they nvr ton over at airport, took cab back sumore.. Jia lat if we go sia.. Sumore nxt day me n amos got Army Half Marathon.. Den take cab Go in $5 surcharge for nothing already.. Wise decision sia..

I had only like 3 hrs of sleep for AHM cos i 5am wake up liao.. Tot still can ta han, by the time i reach there, giddy liao.. I tot to myself, nvm, just walk all the way.. In de end, me n my two other friends slow jog all the way.. Like really slow cos we talk all the way.. haha.. By 7km mark, my friend suggest we run back la.. I was damm reluctant.. But he say aft nxt water point, which was prob 100-200m away, den run la... One person set the pace den run.. I still damm reluctant, even suggested just walk back la..

In de end, aft the stop at water point, we really run, and i was the pacer.. LOL.. Dunno why but suddenly got momentum to run.. I guess cos when u keep taking over the person in front of u, and cutting through the crowd, u got some adrenaline rush, den i just kept running non stop.. Faster than my usual pace sumore.. Power liao la.. Den aft the run, we were supposed to wait for the prize giving ceremony and photograph taking session wif my division people.. But we dont want la, cos damm retarded, my sir tell me by 12plus den can leave, and i ran finish at 9plus.. Wait 3 hrs just to dismiss! SIAO!!

So me n my battery ppl, deciding if we shld leave, den we see our unit ppl all leaving also, den we heck care liao la.. Just quickly zhao already! But i tink we may kanna sum punishment la, but heck care la, stupid army do stupid things..

Den that afternoon, met amos ,matt and sy to watch death race.. Ade joined us just in time for the movie.. In the cinema, some one fell.. Some one, i shall not say who.. But someone.. And we all cannot ta han sia.. Sure laugh one la.. Luckily not face first kind of fall, if not sure gone.. hahaha.. And when i reach home, really knock out sia.. Damm shag, it was like suddenly all the tiredness just kicked in.. I din even bother to play computer games, watch abit of soccer and sleep liao..

Today, met hp n van up for lunch and the rest of the day at home watching movies and play computer liao.. I cant keep up this for tue n wed man.. I will die liddat!! Need to go find programs to do.. This is what happens when u join the army.. Control ppl's leave den make ppl suffer.. Ppl wanna take leave so that they can enjoy themselves on a holiday or have a short rest, but now i am left wif staying alone at home while everyone else has their own work/studies.. NS really really sucks..

"The past is a memory and it help to teach me, the present is now and is there for me to grab, the future is coming up and it's up to my imagination to create... "

Mission Accomplished..

Yst, finally watched money no enough 2... FINALLY!! After many weeks of delaying it, finally.. Many ppl told me, the show sucked, not worth watching.. After watching, i understood why.. I believe almost every one expected a comedy, but they were disappointed as there werent many funny scenes.. The movie was more like a msg to the govt about the difficulties, the sad side of singapore family and what the govt are not doing to help.. And the movie really reminded me of my grandfather.. Cos the grandmother in the show, is almost similar situation to my grandpa, just that my grandpa got stroke and the family situation not so dramatic..

Maybe some ppl would have that guilty feeling when watching the show becos they neglact their love ones like in the show, but i can proudly say that i did not have that feeling becos i know that i showed love and concern for my grandpa just before he passed away, and i am really happy abt it..
The story is right here - http://thefirstofme.blogspot.com/2006/11/tribute-to-my-ah-gong.html

So, before watching the movie yst, already got drama.. First, initially was me,amos, mat n sy go watch.. Den mat kanna COS duty last minute, and amos, cldnt find any reason not to go so he tried to insist the "act blur not going answers" to me.. But i nvm one.. really.. insist no happiness.. So, me n sy just went ahead to watch.. First we travelled to vivo to collect my jeans.. It so happens that, the day i sent and collect my jeans to and from altering, it was with sy.. She was just complaining im using her to do my errands, like what the.. U just swuay la.. hahaha.. And i lost my receipt for collection, prob dropped out of my wallet, but luckily, the zara staff said it was ok, just needed to sign on the receipt that they kept.. heng no fine ah .. haha

Den we moved on to City hall for dinner cos we wanted to watch at marina.. I decided to go Clarity to show sy the famous "Old Macdonald had a farm", or in HER terms, "Old Macdonald had a COW!" hahaha.. After that, we proceed to Marina, and on the way there, fireworks were on.. Apparently i think, NDP was still on.. Cos many ppl were heading to city hall mrt from the NDP place.. Walking towards marina, everyone stop and stare at the fireworks.. Well, fireworks are a big deal in Spore.. We dont see it often, plus it's really beautiful sight.. We decided to walk on the outside to see more fireworks.. So apparently they close one of the links to city link becos of the dismissal of NDP..
Den when we want to walk to the city link, closed.. Not the whole city link closed, just a certain exit was shut off..

Nvm, we proceed on to a longer way.. Go to suntec than cut to marina.. Everywhere in marina was crowded due to the exit of the NDP..Plus Me n sy hate crowds.. so it wasnt the most pleasant experience walking thru marina at that time.. When we finally reached GV, no movie slots for Money no enuf.. Sian.. We quickly proceed to take a back exit out of Marina to take bus to town to watch.. In de end when we reach the bus stop, bus stop closed off cos of the NDP.. The nearest bus stop was prob 100-200metres away.. By then i already sweat like dog liao cos we walked forever, route march already.. So we decided to walk back to the mrt cos the next bus stop was also bloody crowded thanks to NDP again..

We finally made it to the MRT and proceed to Dhoby Ghaut to watch at PS.. And we were relieved to finally catch the movie there.. PLus din have to wait long for the movie.. we reached at 11pm, the show at 1115pm, couldnt ask for better timings.. hhaha.. Sitting down on the cinema chair was an accomplishment, it felt like we conquered a great battle.. we travelled for over 2 hrs just to watch that movie..

And i am so glad that i no need to book in Sat nite!! YES!! Imagine booking in 7pm on a sat nite.. That means i must leave my house at 5pm.. Damm SIAN lo.. But heng ah, now can go straight there ourselves.. WOO!!

Only live your life once..

Yst, svc as usual, but slpt during the preaching.. I cannot take it sia.. Preach abt the 7 pillars of society again.. Yes, it may have been from a diff light, but still the same gist if u ask me.. Sumore, he did not even finish his sermon during the 1hr plus of preaching.. Super draggy..

So aft svc, had a super long briefing cos Annabel wanted to talk to my IC.. So that's why took so long.. Aft that, went to meet up wif amos n mat.. Tot i wld see ade sy and gang but they went off first w/o waiting.. When we called them, they at bedok platform waiting for irene.. So we already waiting for train at expo liao.. just two stops away.. And when we on the train from tanah merah to bedok liao, they msg to meet at somerset.. So we were like one train difference only.. Cannot wait meh?? Really din get it.. Den when we reach somerset, call them again, they already walk to cineleisure.. Cannot wait again.. really din get it.. but nvm, in de end still met up..

It was a rather big grp of 9 ppl.. we went pastamania to eat.. We sat there for damm long la.. After eating we just keep shooting arrows at each other.. I certaintly did not start firing or fired any.. Amos, to me, had the most number of arrows liao.. Cos of his past and present "selection".. if u know what i mean.. hahaa.. Then all of us play the "wa, dont make me say out ur secret ahh".. all play dirty liao.. hahaha...

Aft that, went to lvl 9, booked a room for entertainment, amos n mat was like CS-ing the whole nite cos only got two coms in the room.. While the rest of us watched Dan in real life.. Not a bad movie.. But i realise Steve Carell's specialty role is playing those kind of guy that embarasses himself and the ppl ard him.. In Get Smart and The Office, that's the role he play.. ANd he really plays it well..

By the end of the movie, already 2plus in the morning liao.. Go home.. sharmaine, cc,ade n mat took one cab, and the rest of us took to rojak cab.. Rojak cos first we drop sy off at eunos, den amos at tanah merah den me at tampines.. hahaha.. Initially me n amos din mind taking nite rider, but sy neighbourhood dangerous, so we took cab in de end..

And it was another late nite for me.. Slpt at 5am yst, or shld i say today.. But an enjoyable time, it was prob one of the rarest sats i had.. Cos it was spent in town.. And i hardly even go town! haha..

Woke up at 2pm.. and my mum was like " u wake up soo late ah, i already done so many things liao!".. hahaha.. I told her, my sats gonna kanna burn liao, must enjoy while i still can..

All the best to you, Matthew Lim

So i din exactly have alot of sleep before my morning run, and i was pretty much shagged out when i woke up to prepare.. But insist only.. No happiness but at least can get through it.. And i saw nicky at east coast.. We were at the same start off point, and when i call his name when he ran pass me, he din hear it.. So he still hasnt change his hearing.. hahaha.. But i finally talked to him when i saw him at carl's jr after the run.. ask him if he going mat's bbq, he still can ask if it is his bday.. still blur as ever.. Dont be a stranger anymore nick..

So went home, n nap for like 4hrs before getting ready to go mat's bbq.. And i saw someone whom i haven seen for years! really missed that face, same cg together last time, all the happy times together, n i can nvr forget her laughter cos it's so infectious.. Qianhua!! Thou her habits changed alot, smoking n etc, but still can see she's still the same cheerful girl.. Glad to finally catch up abit wif her..

But the main focus was on mat of course.. THanks for the wonderful bbq.. the food was great.. the beef was power.. haha.. All the best for ur course.. Remember mission first, safety always! LOL.. stay happy always mat!

So the fellowship was good, kozaw wif his myanmar stories n special services.. haha.. and i know, it was bound to happen, kanna made fun, me and sy.. but i dont care! hahaha.. i know no amount of explanation could spare me of it.. so i dont care! ha!

Den it was down to soccer at east coast cage.. Honestly i tink kallang one better.. Better facilities.. pitch bigger also.. So at the cage, one team was like dominating everybody, if not for one of their star player, they long gone liao.. he was practicallly lifting the team on his own, scoring all the crucial goals.. But it wasnt a bad nite for me, i scored some goals, one nice, one tyco but good enuf for me..

And i realise i not used to being defender liao.. After playing attacker in camp for too long, my attacking instincts are more sharp den my defending now.. Hope can play more attacking roles, but i dont mind defender also..

In the end, i was bloody by shag, and slept at 4am.. Another late nite for me.. It was totally enjoyable thou!

Stop and stare..

Yes i am out again.. Thurs nite, cos nxt day is live run at east coast.. Gonna appreciate thurs nite book outs cos it is confirmed.. RTs on sat in the month of sept.. So bye bye to early book outs.. And my life has officially sucked x1million.. Sat aftnoon book out, den sun nite book in, that's like BMT la.. Shit! Back to a recruit's life liao..

Ok, so last week went out wif Sy to vivo, it's like prob still the same since the last time i was there, nothing! haha.. Finally went to alter the jeans.. And amos was suppose to join me, but go skate wif ade la.. nice.. in de end caught love guru.. I tink i am really a fucking lame guy.. i laugh alot in love guru, when it is really a truely lame movie.. Damm.. haha.. I guess when i visualise the lame stuff in the movies to real life situations, it wld be damm funny rite, so ya, i laugh alot.. haha.. either that, or i'm easily tickled..

Not gonna explain too much abt that outing cos it is all on SY's blog.. lazy to go say out all also.. Oh ya.. And i saw yanping at vivo... Well let's just say, she's changed, for the better or worse, not really for me to comment since it was like a first impression kinda thing.. yea.. and SY brought me to daiso, the japanese $2 shop at the top level of vivo.. She literally caught me wif a net.. u know those kind for bug hunting, the long stick wif a net.. She did it like infront of everyone, i was like what the.. but thinking back, it was bloody retarded.. Din know she so crazy till liddat.. LOL!

And my current fav song, one republic - stop and stare..

I know i very outdated, cos it came out damm long ago.. But i only recently got their album, den really start listening to it.. And i realise, power la.. haha.. And i really din know apologise was by them.. I always tot was some R&B artist.. To think a rock band came out with that, absolutely brilliant.. It's a tune on everyone's mind.. Play it anywhere, and ppl instantly recognise it.. Bravo to one republic..

Back to camp, my arms are hurting extremely bad now.. My CO gave a ultimatum to those who failed IPPT.. Pass by sept or stay back for RT, and the commanders in charge of those that fail, cannot clear leave or off.. SIAO LIAO LO!! My sgt come look for me, gave me a 1x good RT after RO.. My hand really ache like mad.. Nxt morning, IPPT training, it wasnt that bad, still quite relac, but aft that training, additional chin up training.. So from wed till now, it has been aching damm bad, and i cant straighten my arm w/o pain.. Even now i walk normally can feel the pain liao.. Sian!!

And lastly, i learn that u cant do lunges exercise in the morning and expect to play soccer well in the evening.. remember that soccer players.. haha..

I am going out!!

You know, i feel kinda wasted cos the whole week i din really "go out".. I mean, i have a damm long weekend.. book out thurs nite, book in mon nite.. and all i did was go svc and airport to eat lunch.. I cant really blame my friends cos they got their own life n commitments.. The best i could get was next week den go out lo.. If i next week really start to to have RT n book out sat afternoon ah, den sian already.. Jx got leave tml, i ask him 1 2 go town, he say lazy..

But in de end i am still going.. going with sy.. It was damm last minute cos i din even know she on break.. yst nite when she telling me abt the vids in her blog, i found out she got break tml, so i asked her out and it was a done deal.. i am going town! hahaha.. Sounds like a despo man.. I guess when u stay at home long enuf, u could be that way.. I really just wanna go alter the jeans den walk walk abit.. I tink prob a few months nvr even go town area at all..

So jx came over to watch the community shield n hp apparently pang seh us.. i was really changing channels to watch the soccer match between man utd n portsmouth and the olympic basketball match between Team USA n Team China.. China kanna owned sia.. USA really too strong.. they literally bully the China team cos of their size.. At first still can fight, china shoot 3 point like free liddat.. but cannot last cos they too tired..

And a ramdom post, my right calf is bigger than my left... i din really realise till last sat morn when i was playing soccer.. i was resting den i look at my legs, eh why so must diff ah.. LOL.. shit.. even hj n hp confirmed it.. I guess my right foot really much much stronger than my left.. jx say is normal le.. but i dont remember my foot being so visually obvious that one of it was bigger..


And i got ripped off this morning.. hj ask me follow him go to this nike warehouse sale at kovan.. when we got there, we realise only open at 12.. so decided to go cut my hair n buy my ear hooks.. and i had to buy ear hooks again cos i dropped one of it while playing soccer.. normally i would pay the most, $2.50 for them.. and when i went to heartland mall.. i tink it is called that, at kovan one, i went thru the whole shopping mall, they had like 5-6 optical stores but only one of them sold the correct size ear hooks i needed.. and it cost $5.. WTH!! Kanna ripped off.. but no choice, cos they were the only one that have n i lazy to go other places to go find.. hj say rubber price increase, i ask him go n die.. hahaha...

In de end, when it was 12, we went there, we realise, it doesnt open on monday.. GG! go home lo.. haha..

Sat nite at home.. what the..

I wanted to update my blog the night which i came out, thurs nite, but i was lazy to update.. I dunno why also.. but just lazy..

So i learned in camp this week that having extremely bad blisters are a no-no.. I had to put plasters everyday n i cldnt run properly.. but luckily, God was kind to me.. My schedule this week super slack.. Slack jack.. Basically, all i remember doing this week was staying in bunk the whole day n play psp n sleep.. Other than the occasional sai kang, games session aka soccer/basketball, garage cleaning, that's all i ever did.. Song song song!! ORD life man.. But my slack life will soon take a turn.. Cos RT is coming real soon.. I believe it is next week.. So no more booking out on fri liao, unless i can do a miracle n pass SOC n IPPT within the week which is 0.0000000000000000000001% possibility.. So suck thumb, book out sat aftnoon lo.. reality will hit me real soon.. SIAN!!!

But we were told to enjoy this week, cos exercise gonna come soon.. Not like physical exercise but artillery exercise.. From what i know, exercise only got like 4-5 hrs to sleep ah.. N Damm shag for commander n driver.. Was disappointed to hear i wasnt selected as driver, but nvm, ammo party is good as well.. Slack.. hahaha.. Fri whole day off plus mon compulsory leave, haha.. shiok la.. long weekend.. And today is sat liao.. Time pass damm fast.. So sian, sat nite at home blogging.. Really like no life sia.. but what to do.. no 1 free also.. plus dunno what to do also.. hiaz..

Nvm la.. start watching all the movies that i got la.. haha..

Happy Birthday to me..

How the weekend has passed by already.. I really couldnt ask for a great birthday than what i have already.. It's really from here that i know who my true friends are.. And how i am still blessed by God.. Thanks matS (plural), amos, van, jx, n hp.. I know i can count on u guys whenever i am in trouble..

I actually tot i would be celebrating b'day in camp, cos it falls on a thurs n i stay in also.. Nvr did i expect, i would be able to clear off! It is really a blessing from God cos my battery was the only one that cleared off last week.. And we are the most "garang" battery liao, or a better description would be the most jia lat battery liao.. Normally all these good stuff, we are the last to get one.. Normally book out also we last one.. Commander wise, we the most buay gan one.. All sai kang almost we take liao.. So to be the first to clear off on my bday week, it is prob not conincidence, but God's blessing.. Thanks God for all you've done n will be doing in my life..

So thurs, just had a simple dinner at 85.. Jx managed to come.. which is good cos he said only can see us like 2-3 months down the road cos he very busy.. I just wanted to eat 85, cos damm long nvr eat there.. After that, went over to ice cream chef, and i ate kaya loti flavour.. haha.. rocks la.. den amos managed to make a desperate attempt to get a cake at 7-11.. tiramisu flavour.. damm creamy la.. but thanks for that..

Fri was the real deal.. We went to Miss Clarity Cafe.. We ate a farm of food.. Literally a farm.. We ate lamb, cow, chicken, pig, potatoes.. haha.. Decided to pay for them cos my mum blessed me with $200.. Nvr had i received so much.. So that was really the icing on the cake.. After that, we proceed to catch the mummy 3 with matthew lim.. Just came back from Australia after like 10 months there? Somewhere ard there.. Den come back for 2 weeks den going canada for a year!! Wa, really power sia.. I dunno if i can take it if i were him.. Considering Mel is in Spore.. If i was single and sign on air force not so bad.. but i tink can die ah, to have a gf n cannot be with her.. All the best man Mat.. the present may suck now, but ur future looks damm bright.. you're the man!

Sat went for FOP.. My spiritual stamina really buang liao.. One hour of praise n worship and i was totally drained.. Hillsongs team lived up to their reputation.. And their drummer totally rocks.. Like really power.. I tink can fight with delirious drummer.. Parachute team, haha, just kidding.. The parachute band wasnt too bad themselves, but the lead singer face really too buang liao.. look like Koala bear face la.. Or some pokemon face.. Really too buang la.. haha.. The word was really good, tot of sleeping during the sermon, but it was just very light n humourous sermon.. So in de end just listened all the way..

Kinda good.. Growing old or growing up was the title of the sermon.. We cant control things that are beyond us.. We can only control ourselves.. The e.g he gave about his teacher was really damm good too.. I tink i sometimes forget that, trying too hard or insisting is just not the way.. We just do our best, n other things out of our control is within God's hands, if it's meant to be, then it will come to pass, but if not, try not to be soo disappointed.. And i have been feeling very down this few months.. And what pastor said also made sense.. Who ever wants to watch a bad movie over again?? To replay it in our minds, in Hi Def TV, surround sound system, in slow-motion somemore, is just being retarded.. I will look to the positives around me, take our all the bad thoughts one by one..

After svc, was cage time!! Before that, my cg celebrated my bday.. Honestly, it was the most un-enthu celebration which i've had so far.. haha.. But heck la, i dont really know the cg well also, thats why.. But the card they presented to me was really nice.. Thanks to the person who made it! Moving on, Damm long nvr play soccer liao.. Damm shagged after the game.. MOst of them all ORD liao, stamina all also gone liao.. haha.. The worst thing, my boots were new, and it gave me blisters at my heels.. It was so bad that the blisters bled a significant amount of blood unto my socks.. Extremely pain, but just insist cos not often can play soccer liddat.. Now i walk as if i just recovered from a fractured foot cos i dont want the shoe to touch the blisters.. Even when i was bathing, i had a sensation liao.. WOO!! siao liao la.. this week my camp focus on PT sumore.. Buang liao.. must bring plasters to camp liao..

Den Van ask me the question, which is in my mind everyday, haven really answered her, but yea, i know the answer.. But everyday the qn just pops up in my mind and i always have doubts as well, but i know that i know, what needed to be done was done..

And lastly, thanks to Aunty shuying who dedicated a post to wishing me a happy birthday! haha.. I know why u always kanna disturbed by the the trio of me,amos n mat liao.. Cos firstly, u are so funny, u end up always giving opportunities to make fun, and secondly, u are open to us.. Which is GOOD! Very easy to talk to plus u are not putting up a front to talk to us.. Carry on being who u are!! haha.. Thanks for the making my afternoons on msn last thurs n fri.. haha..