Achilles Heel.. OKAY WHAT!

I find myself unable to defend myself when i say i dont have a very smooth NS life.. Yes, maybe better compared to a real chiong sua unit like Guards or Infantry, but definitely not like the most slackest.. I still have IPPT, SOC, guard duties, standbys, major events that dont really concern me that i still have to do sai kang for.. Like carpark attendents, marshallers, etc..

Cos it's true that my unit do these kind of sai kangs.. If there was a riot, we will not be called in to subdue it, those combat groups will do it, as for us, we do the sai kang, we usher the civillians away.. That's the nature of my unit, sai kang..

So as i am currently enjoying my leave/off duration, i feel many people getting on my back with it.. Comments like " Aiya everytime stay in like never stay in liddat", or "You forever off one la".. My privallages come with a price.. Just as i have burnt a few weekends over standbys, i get them back n spend it on weekdays instead, so it seems like i have a shorter week, but really, i deserved it.. I remember almost 3 weeks in a row not being able to go service cos of weekend guard duties and standbys..

And soon, i gonna burn alot of weekends again.. Standby is coming, another local exercise is happening, and it happens on a sunday, and when everyone is on off on the following tuesday, i wld be doing guard duty.. Seriously, all these comes with a price and i dont expect you guys to understand cos you guys down PES.. Try a weekend guard duty, or a weekday guard duty in fact to see how shag u will get.. Turn outs, turn until you upside down ah.. You dunno only..

I'm just saying all these here, cos i feel i no time to defend.. So, No, i wont take it lying down..

On a side note, i think everyone has their achilles heel, and we always "complain" about it.. Like for amos, he needs the freedom, that's why he always take so long when we meet up, cos he like to OTOT.. And also, he just complains about NS alittle more than others.. For Jx, do not like to be controlled, that's why he must come up with so many problems and even a recourse 7 week BMT also cannot go through normally and also argue with the MO.. Or like Van, who needs the security, that's why she cant stand it if she isnt the exclusive one to Hp..

You get the picture..

I guess mine, plainly obvious, i need the company.. I need a partner.. I like the idea of doubling your joy and half-ing your pain.. And we all do these little complains in our blog, but it's okay, it's natural to have a need.. OKAY WHAT!! So Amos, just bloody hell complain every little shit thing you can about NS, cos it hell does suck big time... Dun give chance only.. haha

In de end, God matters..

Shopping with Terence today was like a breath of fresh air..

He was one of a kind.. Helping me "save" some valuable cash when buying 3/4s today.. After a few rounds of failed attempt to get a cheap 3/4s, i tot maybe going mainstream with Revoltage or Collage would be the solution.. But Terence had other plans.. Must insist that i dun get "cheated" by absurd prices cos i am a Singaporean..

The theory is that, being a Singaporean, you must not be naive and believe that certain items are not supposed to be so expensive.. Cos when shops owners see tourist, they like to raise their price cos they aint from singapore.. So i was suppose to believe that a 3/4s does not cost 70 plus by Revoltage standards or 60 plus by Collage..

Instead he brought me to Flexor, where 2 decent 3/4s can cost you only $40.. True enuf, he did helped me saved alot.. haha..

Besides that, i gotta say he gave honest opinions on the stuff i wanted to buy.. He din go like " huh!! BEN SHERMEN?!?! I rather buy a giodarno than BEN SHERMEN!!".. EHHHH.. Sorry matt, but just had to add in.. LOL..

The day started with me, hj n terence going to TP to eat lunch.. Serious case, TP.. We ate at Mensa.. The western still power siol! Then terence said something that hit me, " We come in Poly in 2004 right, means we 5 years the senior of the freshman this year.. " WA SIAN MAN.. 5 years le.. I suddenly feel damn old..

And on the bus to town, we talked about the fear of the future and how nice it was not to grow up anymore.. It's so scary.. First time in our life, we have to take full responsibility of what we do.. Damn..

Can you imagine, so many things to think thru.. The pay you will get, the house you live in, the transport we want to have, the job that you have, your love life, your family life.. All these are gonna cramp into my head soon enough.. I mean you think of the family you want, do you really wanna have a child so late in your life?? Then you have to work even longer so that you can support him till he works.. For e.g a typical guy, maybe enters poly, goes thru ns, den goes to uni for 3 yrs.. That guy wld have been 25 yrs old before he starts to find a job.. Let's say u had this son at 30 yrs old.. Means at 55 yrs old, then your son can get a job.. That's if there isnt any hiccup on the way sumore..

Kk.. I am scaring myself.. haha.. No need to worry la hor, cos God has my future.. haha..

We struggle..

Today the match, i was much much more composed.. Partly becos the opposition doesnt close down much.. And true enuf, i played like Rio Ferdinand.. Cos Rio Ferdinand cant header for nuts.. LOL.. My heading really CMI.. But i was pleased with my performance..

It's not as easy as it is.. I dunno how other people do it but it's plain difficult for me and some others as well.. I still remember Jx always asked me last time, " Eh, you still haven got over Yi Chun ah??".. And when i say no, he wld always say, " wa.. why waste your life away??" And my reply was always the same as well, " it's not that easy".. I really struggled.. Even now, i still think back and wonder what if..

And as i read jx blog, I really cant catch up with his relationship status wif Jess, but i know one thing is for sure, it's not easy living w/o the person you call love or used to call love..

Den again, maybe it's just me..

7 hours of Uninterupted Rest

I will never underestimate the power of 7 hours of sleep.. If i have learnt anything useful in army, that would be it.. It is not only an important criteria for play sports but also for daily life.. Do you know having enough hours to sleep prevents you from gaining weight also?? Studies show that people who do not have enough sleep are likely to gain more weight than those who have enough..

And i can really tell the difference when i play soccer.. Just one week of lack of sleep, and i feel giddy when i start playing.. So no more late nights if im playing soccer the next morning.. I wld give timbre a miss on friday from now onwards..

And what a match!! OMG.. Man Utd.. 5 goals in one half.. What a comeback.. What a comeback.. I dun care what they say about the penalty.. It's true the Gomes touched the ball, but not from the ref's angle.. Sorry Spurs but this things happened.. But you cant fault Man Utd for the other 4 goals.. It was attacking football at its best..

This is what defines champions.. Never say die attitude..

From Johnny Evans To Rio Ferdinand.. Soon..

My mind is wandering off again, thinking of things that i shouldnt be thinking of.. Damn.. Gotta take control of my thoughts..

I think God knows what i need, and hope it aligns with what i want.. Then it would be just perfect..

More about the game on sun first.. I played again for my cousin's team.. This time we versus an indian team.. The thing about indians playing football is this, they are either darn fast, or darn rough.. Luckily, none of those traits were in that team.. They were made up of older men.. The oldest being 60 yrs old.. Yup, you din heard wrong.. But obviously only one was in that range while the others i'm guessing between late 20s or 3os to early 40s the most..

It should have been a walked in the park, considering we are all young people, easily outrun n outlast them, but we scrape through to get the victory.. Partly due to the fact my team's finishing was a letdown.. I think probably alittle less than 10 one on one chances all miss.. If not, half of them just went in, it would be a thrashing..

The final score was 3-2.. The first goal we let in was rather unlucky on our part, cos the striker was offside but the ball defelected our player before it got to him, so yea.. The second abit careless defending, thankfully, i wasnt the one.. And actually we almost drew with them cos i cleared one off the line after the player dribbled past my keeper.. It was just instinct to immediately rush to the line once i saw my keeper come off the line.. It paid off..

It was an almost perfect match for me if not for my ball control.. If u've seen me play on sat, you wouldnt recognised me on the pitch on sun.. I totally cant control a simple ball on the field.. I guess i haven settled in the team, still abit nervous when i play, give me a few more games and i'll play like Rio Ferdinand, composure.. haha

The good thing about that team is that they really relac.. Even when we missed goals that primary school students would have scored, they never even said a word to scold each other.. The most make fun, but not a word of lecture.. Which is good cos it takes the pressure off people.. And i guess cos they are mostly malay..

Yup, you wont see me mixing with malay other than this team.. All in the name of football.. They are not that bad, there are some older ones there. Prob in their late 20s and 30s.. One of them whom i play centre back with, is formally from Singapore Youth team last time.. Same time when Noh Rahman was there.. The Singapore Team right back position.. He says Noh Rahman was very quiet.. Yea, interesting team really..

Playing for them again this week, i think i can permanently join their team already..Ha!

And may i just add the weather now really SUCKS!! It is liteally FROM HELL! I am suffering in camp every night n day, cant even sleep with that "shiok" feeling.. Always so uncomfortable now.. Darn the weather!

Left 4 Dead..

Yesterday, we broke the cycle of going simpang for dinner.. haha.. I still wanted to go to chomp chomp.. But too bad we all dunno how to go.. In de end, ECP was good enuf.. I still dun get it with the complains thou, Simpang is okay only le.. Wif their price range of western, i wld take astons over it anyday.. Astons at least still can choose side dish, and their standard is really good also..

But i just think we are a weird bunch.. I dun think any other grp wld eat Simpang consectively every sat for 23568862482969468538 times.. I think we may just have entered ourselves in the guisness world record.. Maybe it just speaks of our grp, too darn lazy to do or try anything new.. Wif bikes to fetch everyone we still go simpang which is just a few bus stops away from expo.. Yes, we are a weird AND lazy bunch..

And yst, i was heavily "persuaded" to play L4D.. haha.. HEAVILY.. A mob of 5 persuading u to do something can be intimidating.. But i really damn shag.. If i wasnt, anytime also wld play L4D.. Just to prove it, i that time also follow matt n chit yong to geylang at like 1 am plus just to go walk around and "see see".. haha.. So really, if not shag, anytime also can..

But in de end, i still went to play, since 3 v 3 wld really be more fun than 3 v 2.. And true enuf, it was fun.. Seriously, but i guess 4 v 4 wld have been perfect.. And also if i wasnt that shagged..

I can see why L4D is such a hit.. Really addictive.. Especially playing against each other.. haha.. Very tactical game.. haha.. And yst, we set a new record for ownage timing.. I guess was 5 mins top.. Damn fast.. I cldnt believe it myself also.. And call it beginner's luck, but i was on the winning team when that happened.. haha..

Till nxt time, we all rape Johnny.. LOL..

And was damn disappointed wif the soccer match being cancelled today.. Kan sian.. Tot this wld be the chance to reunite wif terence in central defence.. Hiaz.. Sian..

But my cousin asked me to play for his team later again.. So not a bad consolation.. I think that's what our team lacks.. A stable team to play every weekend.. We cant even get 11 players to play every week.. Kan chui..

Today match at Jurong.. Wa kan sian.. LOL.. after the match i can book in already.. And may Man Utd beat Everton tonight and reach the FA cup final..

There's only one United.. Man United rules!

I will look for you, i will find you, and i will kill you!

Please, people, watch the movie Taken.. Matt intro me this film, and gave me a real brief summary of it, "a man's daughter got kidnapped then the father go find her".. Simple story line, but thrilling action..

But going alittle more deep into the story, the father used to work for the govt, he was a "preventer".. And very skilled in combat training.. Kinda like James Bond, but retired kind.. So when the daughter was overseas, she was talking to him on the phone when she saw the kidnappers enter her house and took her friend first.. Den the father instructs her what to do.. He told her, she would be kidnapped, but wants her to shout out distinctive features of her kidnappers to the phone when she was taken so that he can find them.. Interesting enuf??

The best part came when they kidnapped her already, then the kidnapper picked up her phone while the father was still on the line..

He told the kidnappers "I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. If you are looking for ransom, I can tell you I don't have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills; skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. If you let my daughter go now, that'll be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you. But if you don't, I will look for you, I will find you, and I will kill you." Then the kidnapper replied him "Good luck"..

Wa power la tell u.. The rest is rather predictable and he saves her n stuff.. Of cos the action is rather good also.. So is a must watch in the cinemas now!

Went out yst with my army friends after we booked out.. Half day.. So we decided to eat buffet at suki sushi.. It has been a long time since i ate until that full.. I think the weight that i lose the past few weeks has already been gained back.. Is those kind u eat till u walk also got some difficulty kind of full.. haha.. I dun think i wanna do such sucidal things any time soon..

The funny part was i ordered this lobster paste sushi.. Ordered 2 plates, cos lobster stuff are nice.. Unfortunately my friends sharing the table wif me aint really seafood eaters.. They dun even eat the salmon or seasoned octopus!!! Like wth man, come eat sushi but dun eat that?!?! So damn swuay, cannot finished the lobster sushi, so we decided to put back on the belt.. 5 mins later, a waitress put back the sushi on our table.. LOL.. KAN PAISEH.. I think they knew it was us cos only we ordered it.. LOL..

And i also went to buy a headphone combined with a mic for skype.. I know skype came out very long ago.. I guess i was just lazy to venture n see how it is used.. It's really really very good.. Especially for those that really likes to stick to their coms.. Calls are free over the internet.. All u need is download the program n have a mic.. If i knew this earlier, i would have save so much money on phonebills with yi chun last time.. Wasted..

I guess i'll prob use it for my nxt gf.. haha.. But right now, i'm using it for gaming.. Yea, u can open it, load a game, connect to friends and talk while playing with them online.. Haha.. We tried it on diablo 2.. Nxt game to try is left 4 dead already.. Waiting to go download the game only.. haha

The grass is FOREVER greener on the otherside..

It was rather unexpected to find someone to go down to Tampines One with me.. Cos i already tried, people who would be free, turned out to be un-free..

In de end, woke up this morning, found out that someone went for wisdom tooth extraction n had mc till friday.. haha.. Nice one la Terence.. Quickly, i asked him and straight away, agreed.. Done deal..

So Tampines One was a breath of fresh air.. Cos it's different from TM or Century.. And even during weekdays, late afternoon after the lunch crowd, it is still packed!! WTF.. It looked like a heeren on a weekend.. Tampines had suddenly become orchard road.. haha..

And Uniqolo, or whatever the spelling, still had a queue.. Seriously, over-rated, but i guess since Japanese has good fashion, people are drawn to it..

Like what terence said, "it's just a japanese giodarno".. Rightly so.. But topman is also just a british giodarno.. People were and are still crazy about it..

I guess it's just the image in ppl's mind.. It shows how vain we are all.. They are all "giodarnos" in their own right, but some are just more popular than others..

The grass will forever be greener on the otherside..

It was long overdue...

A song is just a melody wif lyrics.. But a heartfelt song is a melody of love..

I think it's the same with prayer.. Prayer is just using your mouth and talking to God.. But a heartfelt one, is where you use your heart and talk to God..

Right now, i think i have lost faith with people.. Just seeing all the bad sides of everyone.. I really dunno if i can ever find a companion that i can actually relate to.. It doesnt have to be my future gf, even a normal friend will do right now..

I am not one of those that opens up easily nor have a wide circle of friends.. A perfect example of an ideal friendship was during sec 2, when me n nicky were close buddies.. I think i almost went his house almost every week.. Be it playing soccer, cycling to east coast, playing chess.. At that time we even diablo-ed over Ip together.. Those were fun times.. Nowadays, i cant even find a companion to even watch soccer with..

They say relationships need chemistry, i think friendships need as well.. Just that relationships are of a different or higher kind of chemistry.. And i guess it's been awhile since i shared a chemistry with someone.. The last one i had, turned out real bad, like really bad..

I'm not saying my current friends now are bad, but we're just different.. And everyweek it's like coming together doing something that makes everyone comprimises.. I think i can only simply put it this way, I want to have that feeling of wanting to do something, and this other person also wants to do it.. And it's really very difficult finding that someone..

I pray to God, that He will help me find that someone.. From the bottom of my heart..

And it's funny how things have turned out.. I used to complain about something, but now i realised that something was all i had.. I feel alittle dumb, like how did it turn out liddat.. Well, people make their own decisions that determined their life they have, i dont make it for them, so i can see their decision now, that i'm just not part of their lives..

And when i look back, i realised the ones that complain are also as bad as the ones they complained about.. I now regret saying what i said, or judged, cos no one is perfect.. Cos at the end of the day, you must see who are the ones standing with you, and who are the ones that left you alone.. I guess God likes to show you how stupid you are sometimes..

Played like Johnny Evans, inexperienced but alittle steady..

Today is the 2nd day i had soccer this week.. 2 days in a row.. My legs cldnt take it.. Sat one was a killer.. Just now i played for my cousin team, against this very very lousy team.. haha.. We played with ten players due to red card, still thrashed them 6-1.. Damn chui..

And unfortunately for me, lack of playing on field conditions, i played like a noob.. Yea.. Simple grounder balls cant even control.. But i'm used to street soccer already.. I'm used to just stretching my leg and seeing the ball stop at my feet, instead of the ball bobbling over it.. U see, singapore soccer field cant make it.. Not like EPL pitch which u see on tv.. The ball rolls nicely to a player.. Singapore field, the ball bobbles everywhere.. So it's different..

Doesnt help that i dont have nerves of steel.. I panicked.. Cos in an unfamiliar environment, i feel the need to impress, so i wasnt myself..

Thou i played like shit, but defensively i did rather well, clearing balls when need to.. So they wanted to recruit me since they hrd i got no team, prob be a reserve or something, but feels good being wanted.. haha..

Nxt week playing first time for harvest league, I have never seen a team as messed up as the one that i'm gonna play for.. And it is all due to one guy.. KAN JIA LAT i tell u.. Guess today is good practise for next week.. If i have a chance to manage the team, i wld try some experimenting positions with some of the players that i believe have the potential to be.. But, that's another story for another day..

FAIL!

This was the one i was talking about.. The guy who celebrate a goal, got injured, and the goal was ruled offside.. FAIL!! Haha..

Current Favourite

This Ain't A Love Song lyrics
Should have seen it coming when the roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
Should have listened when you said, "Goodnight"
You really meant goodbye
Baby, ain't it funny, how I never ever learn to fall?
You're really on your knees when you think you're standing tall
But only fools are 'Know it all's' and I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried there were nights that I died for you, baby
I tried and I tried to deny your love drove me crazy, baby

If the love that I've got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song

Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime
But we were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade?
The clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change

It made me so mad 'cause I wanted it bad for us, baby
And now it's so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving, ohh

If the love that I got for you is gone
And if the river I've cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yea, I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feelin' so strong is the reason I'm holdin' on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song, ooh

I cried and I cried there were nights that I died for you, baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't no love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong is the reason I'm holdin' on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song

Ooo, ohh, ohh, ohh, ohh