Lots of tots, very little of actions.. (M18 for the brain) (Parental Guidance)

I tink to myself everyday.. stuff i did and what i could have done..
I just wanna apologise to my darling cos i felt i really din treat her as well as i've used to... I'm really not used to working life and its really tiring me alot.. When u're tired, u just sumhow cant control ur feelings, cos u ARE tired.. duh rite.. so i gonna do sumthing abt this, i will really try my best to keep a clear mind.. den i can control my feelings..

Anyway, just checked my friendster and "hao peng" say that we should be just like old times, enjoying each other's company..
So true.. I got to be happy with my own life man.. I am happy now, friends are great, love life is great, just had a great time worshipping God on sat..
In da past, I've been doing things dat just din make me happy at all.. Week in and week out i felt dat there was no purpose anymore.. And i've decided, i might as well be happy and still worship God, den be unhappy always and complaining to God and when i see tat GOd din answer my prayer, i backslide.. There WERE times when i felt so unhappy, i question myself why bother still goin to church?? But den i saw a new light, that no point being sum1 dat i am not and dat suffer liddat.. Be who you are and enjoy God.. God places ppl around us to impact us and love us.. If i feel i'm with the wrong crowd, den i got to do sumthing abt it.. I mean,when i'm with my close friends, i thank God for bringing these friends into my life, but when i'm just with "friends", i pray to God that why cant they be better.. So in a way, i'm more thankful to God now.. :)

There has been alot of advises like u cant stay to near that friend or dun even friend this friend.. Come on, i noe your intention is good, but i noe myself well, i wun do stuff dat are bad like stealing and etc if i'm with them.. Those advise only apply to ppl who arent mature enuf.. I feel if u noe urself, u be firm with ur beliefs, u can mix with any1 and still not get affected.. Lets say, just say only, i'm not saying IT WILL HAPPEN, that i do fall into bad company, den i do all sorts of thing and bla bla bla.. I still believe one day i will wake up my mind and come back to God.. God has a purpose for me and u, if lets say we do fall down, we learn da lesson, God empowers us to pick ourselves up again.. Sumtimes we got to make our own mistakes and learn ourselves.. Thats y in life, u shldnt regret anything,cos everything in life, ups or downs, it will make u stronger or wiser or better.. So be happy now, make mistakes, take risks, learn from mistakes..

Pls understand, i'm not saying dun serve God or dun go all da dreaded prayer meetings.. Even when u're serving, u got to be happy and i am happy serving God in chorus board or playing guitar.. In fact i love to help play guitar for worship... As for prayer meetings, its tough becos we are not used to praying, we are not born to pray.. So i'm not saying if u hate it den dun go.. no no.. That would be called just lazy instead of being unhappy..

This post is for the mature ppl.. Pls do not read if u have a below 18 years old thinking..