Yesterday was my last time to book out on friday.. Hopefully, it wouldnt last for long.. Enough said..
By the time i reached home, it was already 7 at night.. And i was extremely tired.. I know i have the mentality to enjoy my book outs, but i actually slept at 9plus.. You can tell that i really aint bluffing when i said i was extremely tired.. Just when i was about to sleep, my bro told me got Man Utd's match at 245am, totally forgotten about it, and i thought to myself, "just nice, i sleep early then wake up to watch the match!". Set my alarm and was all prepared to have a good rest.
But, my phone rang at 12plus, it was Sy... She called to ask where i was and after a short conversation, we hang up.. Details of the converstation need not be revealed.. Ha! Initially, i thought i couldnt fall back to sleep because my past experience showed me that i just cant.. But in the end, i managed to sleep again.. Not long later, my phone rang again.. This time it was Jx.. He asked me if i wanted to come out and chill with him.. At first i wasnt enthusiastic about the idea because i just woke up, but once my mind "woke up", i decided to meet up because i havent met him in a while plus, i wanted to have supper..
When you have dinner in the army, and you plan to have late nights, you would definitely have supper because dinner is normally at 430pm.. Yes, it is true, 430pm.. Some people may just had their lunch during that time, some may have just woken up from their sleep, while most would be busy with school or studies.. 430pm..
So i met him up, took his ride down to Tampines Block 400+ to have some muslim food.. He had coke, while i had ice horlick for drinks, and we both ate maggi goreng.. Honestly, standard of food there, not bad..
So here's the thing.. Whenever i meet jx up to relax, we actually talk about the problems we face.. Mostly is army, friends, family,money and relationships, i mean the usual stuff right.. But somehow, talks with him really makes me think alot.. Sometimes the things he says helps me to reflect on the things i'm doing, sometimes it helps me realise that my situation is very blessed and other times, i just dont agree on his point of view..
Like NS, i think i am rather blessed with my vocation.. Not a "chiong sua" unit yet also not a clerk that face paperwork everyday.. Sorry Amos, no offence to you, but i really cant imagine doing 2 years of paperwork for the army.. Maybe if it's a job outside, i would still consider, because of the freedom, if you dont like it, just quit.. That is why NS people can get depressed, not the "chao keng" type, but really depressed.. But we all face our difficulties, like how i cant book out on friday night anymore.. And that's all i complain about now.. Other than that, my stay in life is really good.. You know the saying, "it's not about the place, it's about the company", it is true.. Because when you stay in, the people around you is your friends, your outside friends cant help you.. And when you live your life week in week out with these group of guys, even if we get "sai kang" or really "chiong sua" task to do, it's still fun because you get to do it with so many other people.. When we play, we play together, when we complain, we complain together, when we feel injustice, we feel it together.. And that is why i am blessed..
In Jx case, he just got caught in the hierachy of army.. Army is a place where rank rules.. It's not about the age or the education or even inconsideration of basic common sense, it'all all about the ranks.. Offend any commander can get charge, never eat finish food can charge also, bring bananas back to company line can get charge.. They really play dirty.. No chance to even defend yourself.. That is why they say SAF means "serve and fuck off".. It's not "Enjoy yourself while you're here".. The correct attitude in army is really "do your job, dont complain, dont offend anyone and lastly suck thumb". Army is a vicious cycle.. They offer big money, and people sign on for the money, not willing to commit to making the army better.. All they care is the money, the promotion, the results.. They would do anything to get that, that's why NSF like us are the worst.. We only get a pathetic sum of allowance and everyday still have to do stuff that would suit a banglahs job description.. Shall not go on any further..
I must stop be so judgemental about people's action.. I have no right to do it.. All of us are not perfect.. Keep reminding myself that..
Lastly, end with my fav song from Robbie Williams.. She's the one
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