Deep and Meaningless..

Some blog to express themselves, whether it is sadness, anger, happiness, etc.. Some blog for info-tainment.. Some blog to sell stuff.. For me, i blog to keep a memory.. Some people think it's just lame to blog about your daily life.. At least i can look back one year ago to see and remember what i was doing then.. It would be interesting 10 years down the road, (if my blog even survives that long), when i'm working, i look back and see how interesting and sad my NS life was.. And the memories will just flow back..

This week was really relaxed.. Except for monday and tuesday.. Monday was back to the same cleaning of guns while tuesday i had guard duty.. Guard duty would be the next most sian thing besides RT in NS.. It's a 2hr shift that comes with a 4 hr rest.. You may think 4 hrs good enough for rest time, but imagine doing a 10pm shift to 12 midnite.. You rest till 4 am and start your shift again.. 4 am!!! 4 am!! That's just not cool man.. I haven even start about turn outs, last parades or guard mounting..

Turn outs are like an irritating alarm clock which you cant prevent.. The guard commander rings the bell and every guard rushes to grab a baton n shield or rifle to form a formation outside the gate.. What we do is some drills that are lame.. Basically is just swinging of the baton or rifle to stimulate an attack.. Turn outs are done becos we must be prepared if outsiders dare to challenge the guards to enter the camp without permission.. yea, like who would be so stupid to do that.. Who would bring just a small gang and barge in to a camp liddat.. Let's face it, if ever anyone wants to enter a camp, they must at least be a battalion size to at least compete.. So turn outs are a serious waste of time.. And turn outs can be repeated throughout the night.. It could happen at 8pm and if the duty officer deems it not good, he can ring the bell again at 10pm, or 2am, or even 4am.. As many times as he wants till he is satisfied.. 2am turn out le?? 4 am le?? You sleep halfway hear the bell, really is where's my prata face already..

Enuf about it! The worst thing about tue guard, was my inability to fall asleep during the rest times as my stomach had the weird Mcspicy taste in it.. And i just cldnt fall asleep.. Double mcspicy now sucks to the core.. Too dry and.. and.. just bad quality patty.. so bad that you cant sleep after eating it!!

So when i return back to bunk the nxt morning, some of my battery mates went for driving lessons while the rest slack in bunk the whole day.. For me, i slept practically the whole day.. Like from 9am to 5pm.. Excluding lunch breaks and an occasional table tennis game.. So at the same time, our battery commander gave us an unexpected "gift".. A day off.. To some NSFs, a day off is nothing.. To my battery, a day off is like picking up $50 on the streets.. My battery is very "kiam" about giving off.. So thanks to our exceptional hard work of cleaning the guns, we earned one day off.. Most took the whole week off till next wed but for me, i kept it to store for december.. But to my horror, december cant apply off.. So too bad for me.. I just stayed in camp the whole week and do nothing.. All i did was watch movie, psp, listen music, play table tennis, go jog, eat alot.. You get the idea..

Btw, my battery has a table tennis table.. We all forked out money to buy it.. So it's like a table tennis craze now.. I'm like an average player.. Can beat the rookies but get thrashed by the pros.. Anyway, some part of me din want to book out this week even thou i had the chance.. I mean going home means just watching movie alone, eat, play some computer games, eat... Sad to say, my in camp life is more exciting than my home life just for the fact itself, i have no life outside of camp.. I mean in camp, i'm surrounded with friends.. Anytime wanna "go out" and eat, just eat.. When i say anytime, i mean during the slack week like this week and when i say go out, i mean just out to the canteen..

And I have people to watch movies with me, to play table tennis with, to play psp with, to even jog with.. But i cant do all those when i'm outside.. Cos everyone's just so busy on the weekdays.. so basically what i'm left is those one man activities.. Like watching movies alone, jogging alone, playing games alone.. sad life huh..

But i'm still having my leave from mon to wed.. So hope i can find some programs to do, have some ideas, but no plans yet.. The most just watch movies till i'm bored than nap than play computer games than jog or something.. I dunno.. Go with the flow...

I'm basically just gonna flood this post becos having too much time in camp, i just tot of alot of things and i just wanna rant over here.. So good luck to you readers.. You can choose to blue pill or the red one.. The blue one leads you to another blog to read a shorter post while the red one leads you to the end of this neverending post.. haha.. What the.. Lame..

Next, i just wanna say, this song is great.. Everyone is just listening to it.. Great tune and meaningful lyrics thou the title says meaningless.. I'll post the vid at the end of the post.. The title, deep and meaningless by rooster..

The lyrics, it really spoke about what had happened to me this year.. I'll just post the meaningful parts.. Go search for the whole lyrics yourself..

I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn thats sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me

It's really true when i've been hurt and dont understand why you did that to me but yet i'd do it again to relive what we had, damn, i'm a really sad man.. And after all these years, you remembered nothing about me, my love for you was really deep and meaningless.. It's like i never loved you at all.. It can never be explained by logic and will never be determined by logic, but it's always unexpected in a good way and a bad way.. I guess that's why relationships are so unique..

I'll still remember the eagerness to meet you everytime i have a nights out or the eagerness to know your holidays when i have the chance to take leave.. I'll still remember the countless times you just slept on my lap or shoulder when i send you back.. I'll still remember how far it was to send you back each time.. I'll still remember the times you got jealous of my tiger.. And i'll still remember the times when you made time just to meet me every week.. But no matter what, they'll stay in my head as memories or even lessons in my life..

Speaking about relationships, i watched a few marriage movies recently.. American Pie the wedding and Made of honor.. And i picture myself getting married.. Dont ask me why i do that, my mind wanders around alot.. And i cant imagine the stress that a couple has to go through.. And to marry somebody is already damm stressful.. I mean how do u know when is the right time?? How are you sure you wont regret it?? You know what i mean?? I mean you know he/she loves you alot and you get along pretty well, but marriage is an entirely different thing.. I mean go watch a marriage movie and you picture yourself the bride or the groom, den you'll get what i mean.. But i may have got the answer.. Both of the shows, the lead actor, made a huge effort just to get the girl what she wants or to get the girl, so i guess, you know you love someone, when you're willing to go that extra extra long mile just to please him/her..

That was quite random, but also a tot in my head..

Okay, i just realised, i'm so outdated with outside life that i dont even know 5 Arrow Monkeys are performing tonite at expo.. Great! So i missed their performance.. Really great!! Super out of touched.. I know you guys are performing now.. Hope you guys win.. From the bottom of my heart..

And lastly, whew, that was serious long, tomorrow soccer!! Finals.. 8 teams.. 3 matches to get glory.. I'll go all out.. I've been training abit.. Like jogging and sprinting.. Just a little to prepare for tomorrow.. I dunno why, but my foot still hurts, haven tried kicking a ball, but i still can run, so it's a good sign.. And i may just have to be the goalie tomorrow..Cos Hj on duty tonite till tomorrow.. Not looking forward to being the goalie, but if it's a sacrifice i need to make for the team, i would.. And i'll do my best to ensure the team progresses.. Let's do it guys, for glory and honor.. Impossible is nothing.. Wish me with blessings.. haha.. I wanted to say wish me luck, but no such thing as luck.. haha!!

Really last but not least..