Suddenly..

Call it fate, call it luck, but it was meant to be.. Last wed when i went back to camp, i brought back all my luggage from the NZ trip to camp.. But i forgot to bring back the most impt thing.. PSP and Mp3 player.. Those are the 2 things vital to a stay in life.. W/o it, people can go mad inside.. It's true..

So i took out the only one entertainment i had.. Harvest times.. Lucky that i brought it cos it was in my bag all along..

Read it to occupy the morning and came across the article, handling your emotions - God's way.. Not that i'm a very godly person, somehow my mind chooses to hear practical advises rather than prayer in the answer.. That's why i normally skip those "spiritual" articles, but read those that got to do with everyday life..

So, the holy spirit did not fill the whole bunk and i started to cry, no, that din happen.. Rather, some words start to open my eyes..

Let me quote what was written..

The truth is, nobody can make you sad.. Nobody can make you glad. You alone are responsible for your own feelings!

You may be playing the blame game and projecting the blame on everyone around you for the way you feel. But the truth is that no one owns your feelings except you. You choose to be angry or forgiving, loving or hateful, mad or glad. And you can actually choose to change the way you feel.

An e.g they gave..

When someone spits on you, what do you get?? Mad?? No, you get wet. You chose to be mad..

And i went, true true.. So now, i want to take control of my feelings.. No more emo-ing.. No more how i wish i could go back in time.. My time is now, my future is out there to create.. No more letting my emotions get the best of me.. i conquer my feelings, not the other way round..

In Jesus Name, Amen..