I'm Losing Touch

Let me just conclude the whole of last week, FROM HELL..

I was sick the moment i booked into camp.. After having like a holiday period of leaves/off, i fell sick.. Maybe my body is asking for ORD immediately already.. haha

Sucks when the whole week, i felt totally weak and tired easily.. Just felt like shit the whole time.. And one night, i had trouble sleeping.. I slept at 9pm as i was just totally weak n tired, then i woke up at 2am plus, then 3am plus, then ultimately at 545am.. Each time i fell back to sleep, i was having weird dreams.. Like no link kind..

First was about my ex.. I din really wanna dream that dream, but i cant control also.. If im awake, i still can control my thoughts, but dreams, how?? The funny part was i and her were in a cab, den we saw her mum, when she saw us inside the cab, she waved hi, but the cab bang her.. Not like viciously, but just enough to make her fall, then it drove away.. LOL.. I remember waking up telling myself, that was quite funny.. LOL..

2nd was about, i not too sure already.. But i vaguely remember Hp was inside.. But forgot what issit about.. I remember it had something to do with friends..

Anyway, the whole week was summed up with a guard duty on friday.. KAN SIAN.. The worst thing was, i couldnt sleep, i only slept for 1.5hrs.. I kept tossing n turning when it was my rest time.. Still cannot after like 2 hrs.. Then i gave up..

By the time i reached home on sat, KAN SHAG! I was serving on sat, and my call time was 130pm.. By the time i reached home, it was already 10plus.. So i tot just take a power nap then go down.. The most i tot wake up 130pm.. I never reach on time for ministry anyway, cos their call time really no link.. They expect us to be there at 130pm to practise with the singers.. After about max 40mins of practise, the singers will leave for JW service.. And from 2plus till 530 when service start, we are almost practically doing nothing.. Apa link..

Last time when i joined it wasnt like this, the most only come like 2hrs before service start, but now is getting ridiculous.. Which will lead me to my next point after this.. So in de end i woke up at 4pm!! WTH.. Too shag liao.. Serious case.. Called to explain why i was late..Den made my way down..

So my next point is, i took a break from my ministry.. Cos i really cannot stand already.. I know my leader very understanding, everytime i never reach on time for call time.. But i feel no point la.. I dun wanna set a bad eg and other people start following me and not reach on time.. In army terms, i would probably be the guy wif eye power on the team while everyone else is working hard.. I dun like that also.. And really, if im not happy serving, then i really dont see a point anymore..

Maybe it's a question of commitment.. The arguement would be that it's only every two weeks, come early one time.. But i dun see a point in doing it anymore.. Maybe next time if i ever on fire again.. MAYBE.. haha

So what else has my sickness cost me?? A weekend full of soccer activities.. Initially hj asked if i could play on fri, i wanted to, but i was sick, so i turned down.. Sat was another chance to play, but i had guard duty, but even if i din have, i wouldnt go also.. Then Sun, my cousin asked me since the previous week to play, in de end i also din go cos sick.. KAN SIAN..

This week, MC on monday.. WOO!! Then this week is my battery retreat.. Like an outing liddat.. It is from Wed afternoon to friday morning.. A chalet.. But for the men, they only need to go down on thursday.. The rest is commander's time.. By right, wed afternoon book out.. But i got medical review in the morning.. So after that straight away zhao liao!! SONG!! Wed off, thursday go chalet, at night come back cos i dun intend on staying there.. Then friday off.. BUT!!! Before you people come to me again n say "STAY IN LIKE NO STAY IN LIDDAT!", i Sat evening book in... Got local exercise, from Sunday till Mon..

It comes with a price.. AND, when my whole battery goes for off on tuesday, i will be the only idiot doing guard duty on tat day.. Then only can book out on friday.. See.. The price is heavy also.. That sums up my week..

And i need to start exercising.. Ever since this sickness, cannot start.. Now fat like boomer liao.. LOL.. CMI..