Before the clock strikes 12 tonight, and i get one year older, I just wanna thank all the friends that stuck with me till now.. W/o you guys, life can really be meaningless and un-fun..
Over the years, many come and many go.. And i always wonder what makes a friend.. Similar interest?? Becos of the past that we had?? Or simply cos we've seen each other around for very long time?? I think the answer would be friends are friends cos of the constant decision that we make to stay as one.. Doesnt matter if lifestyles are different or even in different countries, if you decided that i aint your friend, no matter how many similar interest we have, or how near we live, we will never be friends..
So thank you guys, for making that decision..
Thanks
To my soccer buddies, Hj, Hp, Terence, Leslie n Lucas
You guys are a joy to play with!
To my msn buddies, Mildred, Sy, Terence, Van, Jx n Amos
You guys make me wanna sign in on msn!
To my hangout crew, Junhao, Johnny, Amos, Matt n Chit Yong
You guys dota the best (still in progress)!
And lastly,
To my loyal listeners, Matt, Van, Jx, Sy, Amos n Terence
W/o your ears and advise, i may well be buried 6 feet in the ground now
In this past week, i also cleaned up my room.. And i dug out some old memories.. Haha, photos and birthday/greeting/random cards of last time.. It was especially pleasant reading birthday cards from my old cg, encouragement cards and those gratitude cards.. Nostalgia..
I have a few cards that Jx wrote to me, and it reminded me of our close friendship last time when he was still attending church.. So much difference when he was on fire in church n now.. Haha!! But i thank him for all his effort to bring me n help me stay in church, if not, i really dunno where i would be now.. He really tried damn hard to make me come n help me to stay..
There were those from my former close friends/fellow helper also, like celine n qianhua.. Again, they are so much different from where they were last time, but the memories with them will forever stay with me, cos those were happy times.. How i wish i cld go back time and enjoy their company again..
There were one or two shocking ones.. Danielle was one of them.. I really forgot i was actually close to her, in fact till now, after reading those cards, i still cant remember being close to her.. haha.. The way she phrases her words, it's like i helped her in her life, i even received biscuits from her!! But i really dun remember anything, thou i recall receiving those biscuits.. Weird!! haha.. Hmmm, maybe one day i should ask her.. haha.. Prob forgot about me also..
Of cos there were the cg birthday cards.. Last time, birthday cards were so much more meaningful cos of the relationships i had in my cg.. Liyun, Jx, Qianhua, Hj, Angie, Eric and others.. Their comments on my card are so interesting, better than the card i received last week from my present cg.. Haha.. I saw one of my bday, i think it was 16th?? They kept telling me dont be lazy, almost everyone wrote that, and i remembered last time i was FREAKING !#%%@ LAZY!! hahaha.. OMG!! Really old school memories..
And i remembered giving DISCIPLESHIP last time also!! OMG!! Totally forgot about it la.. One of my member thanked me for the discipleships.. LOL.. Kan funny just even thinking about it, cos look at where i am now, how is it possible i even gave discipleship!! haha.. Was talking to amos, and he kept poking fun of me, "oh lai liao lai liao, it's all coming back already, on fire liao!" Haha.. I promise, if i even can reach back the standard last time, my first discipleship will be for amos, for always being so freaking late for service.. LOL..
It's so weird thinking back of the friends i lost in church, that now they are all so different, all partying, clubbing, smoking, etc.. And makes me wonder if i am okay or not?? Cos every1 seems to be changing around me, but i seem to be the same! haha.. And i wonder why all these changes come, and are so drastic?? Issit becos they lost it?? Or issit cos i am stubborn n unwilling to change??
Alot of people keep telling me, " You are still young, why you like that?", of cos that always comes after i tell them i never club before/ dun like clubbing.. Weird.. Maybe people still dun get me enough.. My kind of fun, and your kind of fun is just totally different.. I'd rather play soccer at cage from 12am - 4am then club... I dun mind trying diff kind of sports, if i had a willing sports partner.. That's seriously my kind of fun.. Not the loud music/drink/dance kinda fun.. So becos i dun have a sports partner, so i dun do all these other stuff that i always wanted to do.. Like how to find someone to even play table tennis wif me?? Know what i mean.. Who else here has a racket?? You get the point..
Maybe i dun change that much cos i know who i am?? Maybe i am wrong, as people have always told me, but i feel stability shows a person's character.. And so i try to be constant in my behaviour, cos it's the right thing.. I guess i just have to end off with, IT'S MY LIFE!! As long as my conscience clear, and happy, OKAY WHAT!
Happy Birthday to me (Soon)
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