My mind aint that simple..

I'm not really a fan of taxi drivers who chat.. Some can be really irritating.. Call me old school, but i'm not that comfortable talking to strangers, even thou they can be super friendly..

But tonight, the taxi driver that drove my family back, taught me a lesson.. A simple truth.. Even a stranger can brighten up your day.. It's true.. But of cos if a hum sub old uncle gives wolf whistles to u as a compliment, it doesnt really brighten up your day, it actually destroys your day.. But i'm talking about genuine people you just meet on the streets for e.g.. U know, people whom you help and gives a very sincere appreciation for your help, the feeling you receive is totally awesome, and you feel good about yourself..

This cab uncle actually believed that i could be a first class honor student.. I have never even dream about being one, but yet he sincerely believes i can if i want to.. Before any stereotyping of cab uncles kicks in, this cab uncle is different from others.. He works as a cab driver just to pass time.. Cos he is old, but dun 1 2 be fully retired becos he is bored at home.. He is rich mind you, he stays at east coast estates.. He used to pay almost 50k a year, for 5 years, to sponser his son to go UK to study..

I know most people would go, aiya, he's a cheat la, bluff this kinda story u also believe.. But the way he speaks, isnt like the typical uncle singlish, but instead proper english.. The way he carry himself n presents himself, is also different..

Back to the story, hearing him saying all those things he said, that i can be a first class honors student if i want to cos i look studious, was really enuf to brighten my day.. He carries on by saying nxt time, if i become an accountant, i can earn soo much money .. He even joked that the way i talk to my parents in the future would be different once im rich.. Cos when im rich, my voice becomes louder, and my mum's voice become softer.. haha..

It really made me dream of having my own dream house n dream car.. I dun want a normal Toyota Corolla, or even a Chevy Optra.. I want luxurious cars.. I want a Mercs SLK AMG.. I want a Audi R8, I want a Porsche Cayenne.. And i dun mind staying a HDB flat, but the interior would blow people out of this world..

What the uncle said was intelligent and true also, education is the only way out of poverty.. That is why cert is soo much more impt now..

And it made me reflect before i enter in to SIM.. This is my last chance to make things right.. I remember doing up my portfolio before the interview i had yst.. I looked at my transcript, and i laughed.. A little out of humor, but mostly out of feeling pathetic for myself.. What i saw on that transcript was, 3 whole years wasted in my life.. I just felt so stupid.. Wasting my whole education on a girl who wouldnt sacrificed the same for me.. But of cos, that was just part of the reason, the other reason was just plain me.. So so stupid..

I wanna make things right.. I dun expect all As, but yet it wld be best if it were.. I am grounded, i dun wanna get my heads in the cloud cos i know my ability, I just lacked determination to do well.. I know i can do it, just need to be more motivated and determined.. That is why i may even consider not working during my 2 years of part time in SIM..

What the cab uncle said is true, and i will bear it in mind.. Some people started out at ITE.. Den continue to Poly, den Uni and got a Phd.. They may be late bloomers and took the long route, but their future would be so much more brighter than mine even if i did not take any long route.. I cld graduate at 25, and they, prob graduate at 30 even, but the following few years after that, their job pay could even be double of mine.. Just for the fact that they finish well instead of just making the grade..

Yes, alot of thoughts going thru my mind.. I'm no longer a kid who only thinks of dota everyday or wonders whether or not this sat's soccer, can i score a goal.. I mean i do think of dota almost everyday, and playing well for on sat is on the back of my mind, but behind those thoughts, are deeper thoughts into my future of who i wanna become.. If you wanna be a winner, you gotta start thinking like one.. Attitude determines altitude..

And lastly, i have been very slow with this confession, but God, you are the best.. If ever i doubted receiving any blessings cos i was in army, You have repaid me after my army.. After ORD straight away go to China for holidays, only applying for 1 job that Hj recommended for me cos his workplace needed people.. Came back, straight away offered a job by my aunt.. While waiting for interview for Hj's workplace job, Jx offered me a 3 day job as well.. And i din even go to any websites to find a job, or search any newspaper either.. God is good all the time..

And really really lastly, I shall share one last quote by the cab uncle.. Scholars.. You cant see scholars studying.. You only can see scholars playing basketball or soccer in the day.. But the only time they study, is during the time zone of 12am - 4am.. That is when all distractions are gone.. Phones wont be ringing, nothing on Tv, etc.. That is why, you can never see a scholar studying.. I find it, interesting, and there is some truth in that cos i dun believe all scholars are liddat.. Some are pure nerds.. LOL!!