Reflections..

With all the reflection talks that i've heard during the function just now, i cant help but think of my own reflections.. Sadly, all i can think of during these 2 years in army, is the breakup i've had.

I remember OVL.. Where we looked out for Mas Selamat.. I remember being a recruit.. I remember being a trainee.. I remember POP twice.. I remember New Zealand.. Those are the good memories that will stay with me..

Yes,there is also the bad one.. Training can be tough, it can be mundane, but at least at the end of the day, i have my sleep.. Commanders can be fucked up, some like to pick on me, but at least at the end of the day, i can look to my bunk mates for a listening ear.. But a broken heart in army, i feel, is really the worst time to have.. In army, u already have nothing to look forward to, except the weekends.. And when all my army life, i've depended on this one person to bring me thru, and this person breaks my hope, i am left totally shattered..

I still remember b4 we got together, the leaders wanted to talk to us, to persuade us to re-evaluate, cos she was too young n i haven served army.. Most of the talk was aimed at me cos i haven served army.. There is this belief that army changes people drastically.. To them, maybe after serving army, i would change my mind about r/s and ditch her.. Well, all i can say is proved them wrong.. In de end, it was the other way round.. I feel army does change people, but definitely for the better cos discipline is instilled, and you really will appreciate your love ones more cos of the lack of time outside.. So i dunno why would they ever think that way, not like you can find another girl to cheat on when you inside camp?? DUH!!

Yes, army is not the best ideal place to be, but sometimes, when you are slacking in bunk the whole day, you appreciate that place becos you know when you go out to work, this kinda thing wont happen.. Do you think when you are working, you have so much time to be updated with the latest PSP or PC games?? Or catch the latest episodes of your fav Tv series?? I dont think so.. Army sucks, to the core, but i feel it is really a test and a preparation for us, in the future.. Your bosses would be like your commanders.. It may even be exactly like them..

Or you could even have supervisors who like to pick on you?? The situation could be the same, and you will think, "Damn, i cant say ORD to them after 2 years!".. So really, suck it up, just like how army has trained us.. Life isnt always fair, the good guys finish last and the bad guys get all the chicks..

So here's to life after ORD.. I dream i have a good job.. I hope i have a good job.. And a great pay.. No harm in dreaming righht.. We should all have dreams as well.. And i really hope there is a right partner out there for me.. Someone that the Lord has prepared.. That is for me.. But till then, i will wait, cos it's all about timing.. God's timing..

Last but not least, ORD LOH!!!