A place to rant..

You're clueless, insensitive and unconcerned.. End of story..

Highlights of the week include going for my Secondary school class reunion and catching Clash of the titans..

But i've not much to comment really.. Dun really wanna comment as well..

I'm gonna try and really do something concrete for once.. Mean what i say.. Start studying for goodness sake, stop procrastinating anything and everything..

Fate.. I believe it's God's plan for us, while non-believers may also believe in it, they may not think exactly like me. To them, it's a way of saying, things are meant to be or not meant to be, que sara sara.. To me, it's God telling me, this is or isn't meant for me..

To me, a certain situation could turn out exactly opposite of what it had turned out to be, given different circumstances, timing and etc.. In a sense, anything is possible.. But it becomes impossible becos things din turn out right, the timing was wrong, or a wrong move was made, in short, it was not meant to be, or fate..

I'm not asking people to just live by fate and forget determination.. Cos trust me, sometimes, even if it was meant to be, it doesnt always just fall to place nicely for u.. You gotta work for it, you gotta earn it.. But what i'm referring to is more of, it's not meant to be, no matter how hard you try, how determine you are, it's not gonna work..

U know it's not meant to be when you try so very hard, but nothing works out.. Most of the time that happens cos we just do what we think is right for us.. But when fate calls us, or in my case, God calls, we try so hard, but when it seems nothing works, some window of opportunity opens up, that's when we know it was meant to be..

That's what i really want now, a promise, a fate calling.. Cos it feels like i achieved nothing, it feels like i dun have aims.. It's kinda weird, and a little sick at the same time, but i kinda missed the times i worked 2 jobs with lucas together.. Sure it was hell, damn bloody SHAGGGG.. But everyday, my time is occupied doing something that reaps benefit, in this case, money.. I din even have time to feel emotional over some lame feeling, all i could think, is how much time do i have to sleep, every single day..

You would think it's stupid to find purpose in such a life, but heck, it beats seating on a chair wallowing in pity for yourself.. But obviously, i'm not searching for a life with two jobs, just, something more.. You know, the kinda feeling where u just feel, life has gotta be more than this..

I dun really know if this post makes sense to anyone, but heck, i just need a place to rant..