Self righteous

I can be self-righteous at times. So bad that i dun view my mistakes as a mistake, i view it as a reason. But i'm glad at the end of it i realised i am wrong. At least i know i aint ignorant about the faults i have.

With that, i understand that humans arent perfect.. People will disappoint.. But i'm not sure why, but this recurring feeling happened this week. I'm not really sure what message is it to my life, all i know is, i'm rather disappointed.

I was talking to matt yst, and he said sometimes our group of friends are too comfortable as friends that we can be insensitive at times. Like how sometimes if we meet a friend, we are so casual, late also nvm and stuff.. Not talking abt 5-10mins late, talking about like 30mins late that kind. But if we are meeting prob a hot chic, we are like 5-10mins early instead.. If you are the kind tat if u go on a date and is still late, den you are a douchebag..

And that's what i have been feeling this week. Insensitivity.. Some might argue that i am overly sensitive, but come on, i think we need to draw a line to say who's being insensitive and who's overly sensitive.

To me, if my friend promises me something, cldnt make it for a valid reason, doesnt even apologise,den the friend is being insensitive. But if i hold a grudge becos of that, den i am overly sensitive.

I'm assuming my friend prob thinks we are friends, so takes it for granted that i will understand.

But come on, an apology or showing some regret for not making it, isnt that difficult right? You treat people the way you wanna be treated right?

I'm not pissed, i'm just really disappointed..

The worst thing now that any friend can do is really not apologising or showing regret, and den getting pissed wif me, for being disappointed.

To me, if i cant make it for whatever good reason, i will definitely show some regret, cos at the end of the day, if i said i could make it, but din, den technically it's still my fault. Even if it's a super duper good reason that i cant make it, it's still technically my fault, n it shld be up to my friend to decide if it's excusable. Not me deciding that my friend should understand.

If my friend decides that even if , for example, my dad is hospitalised, and i cant make it, i apologise, and my friend gets angry n disappointed, den i only have myself to blame for having such a friend..

Den again, you could say i'm pretty self-righteous in this post.. I guess somethings just never change..