I walk this lonely road..

Hi there again.. I'm not exactly sure who i'm shouting out to.. I know i have a few faithful readers, Amos, Gina, Matt, prob Van? That's all i know..

Let's continue the story.. Studies part 2..

After a few years, how some things have changed so drastically..

Back in Poly, i was this kid who's world revolved around his sweetheart. I was the kinda guy that people dread to have in their group, i was the "leecher".. I contribute zero stuff but take the results.. In all the meetings, i just stopped and stared.. Becos i dunno what the hell were they talking about..

Everytime when i'm waiting for my results, i pray really hard, i could just pass it.. Cos i always study the day before or probably 2 days before.. Sometimes i wonder how i do it really.. And when i receive it, i thank God i cleared it.. Sigh of relief..

But right now, i am this guy who's world revolved around everything except a sweetheart.. i became the guy who carried my whole team last sem for several projects, everything i bao.. I was the guy who dread having my partners in my group, they were the "leechers". I contribute 99% of the stuff, but share the results.. In all the meetings, i just sigh and sigh, becos i dunno what the hell are they doing here in the meeting..

And when i'm waiting for my results, i pray really hard, i score well for them. Cos i put in effort, thou not my best, to study for it.. Sometimes i wonder why i cant do enough really.. And when i receive it, I dunno what to say to God cos i did okay for it only.. Sigh of depression..

Yup, how things have changed.. There are definitely some perks of not being in a relationship.. No distraction during studying.. But of cos there is a flipside, the lack of encouragement when u feel down..

Honestly, I dun see myself having a girlfriend till i'm late 20s to 30s.. Let's face it, my network of friends are not that big, and part time courses are near impossible to make new friends, so dun bother mentioning knowing girls.. So that rules out any girlfriend from now till i graduate.. which wld be like 24-25 yrs old..

I aim to work at the big four companies.. For a few years to gain experience.. And if u dunno yet, yes, accountants have no freaking life.. But big four accountants have no freaking life and no freaking sleep time.. That's the difference if u ask me.. So let's face it, how in the world can i get a girlfriend with that time wif schedule?? I think i would have difficulty even attending service, meeting up friends and seeing my family already.. What more a girlfriend?!?!

So let's assume 3-4 years of experience.. 27-28? Not even confirm i would meet the special one by then.. Maybe i continue waiting for a few years, another 1-2 years, 30 years old already? 30 years get a gf only.. HG.. hahaha..

Well, this is a brutally honest assessment of my chances of getting attached, so probably mentally prepare myself for a lonesome ride through.. Unless God has a different plan, or some friend of mine, e.g Vanessa, who promised to intro me to some "nice" girls, hahaha, then maybe i have some chance after all..

Alrite, enuf shit, got to sleep, work tml.. siannnnnnnnnnnnn