Irony at it's best

It's ironic.. I remember some time ago i was encouraging vanessa to join a cellgroup cos at least you would have friends to go down service with.. Fast forward that and look at the situation now, Van is happy with her cg, going service even on a sunday morning, while I rather sit alone than with the cg.

How things have changed so dramatically since that fateful day, i was so convinced that what van needed was a cg, but now, i am convinced that i am far better alone.. hahaha.. Funny how life is.. If i were her, i would give the cellgroup talk that i gave her to myself, just to make it feel even more ironic... hahaha..

Let's see the stuff that has changed.. Van went from a lone ranger.. To joining Hp cg for a brief moment, and then later joining her friend at another cg at a different service, and now, even Hp joined her in her cg, living happily ever after.. And I'm really happy for them, becos that's what cg is suppose to feel like, and they have it..

For me, our cg clique became to fall apart, the girls all got attached and started going their own ways.. Left the 3 amigos.. Amos now works on the weekends.. Matt is more lazy than usual.. So now, i'm the lone ranger.. Hahaha.. I think it's like really funny, to see the reverse lifes that we now live..

I thought about what went wrong, and i know the solution.. I need to change cellgroup.. It would be still a risk cos, what if i changed, and I still dun click with the cellgrp? But on the flipside, if i do, maybe i find the right one for me.. Totally should look on the bright side right?

There is another problem that needed to change.. My attitude.. I mean, i know i cant be with my current cg, cos i have tried to mingle with them, but i felt that really no go.. So at least i know i tried before i gave up trying.. And if i were to move on to a new cg, am i prepared to go through that awkward process of making new friends, small talks, facing "weird" or really different people from me and stuff.. Am i prepared for that? Cos sure i can change cellgrp, but if I am not prepared, there wun be a point in changing cellgrp right?

So bottom line, am i prepared to make the change, and honestly, with the life i have now, where i dun even have time to go down town to do shopping, the answer is No..

Let me paint a picture of a guy with no life.. He starts the week with work, almost from Mon-Fri.. The times where he dun go to work, he is busy doing his project work at home the whole day. And after work/project, he still has classes to attend at night which is at a school far away from home. By the time he reaches home, it's time for bed. Come weekends, he always takes sat to destress with his fav sport, soccer and devoting his time to God after that.. Then he finally gets to see his friends once during the whole week, and catch up with dinner.. On sunday, project is always on the agenda.. So he stays home or spends time with his family at least.. So his life passes by each week with this same routine, unable to do anymore, unable to do any less..

I guess it sums it up when i say i dun even have time to go town to shop or even attend cellgroup anymore.. Much less get to take time out to go out and get to know my hypothetical new cellgrp people.. So it's decided then? Be a lone ranger for now till I'm ready, whenever that is.. Or maybe i should quit my job? Hmmm.. Time will tell..