Okay, I haven personally interviewed people to ask them about their year, but on the back of my head now, I know of two who had a bad year.. Well, shit happens, just have to count your blessings each time you go through shit..
I haven really concluded this year of mine.. I feel it's definitely not a bad year, yet, it's not the best either.. So i will go thru my posts for the year to see it for myself..
I started the year badly, with kidney stones.. Yup, it's gonna be a year since I've had it.. And it really wasnt a good start at all! Uni life began for me as well during the start.. New beginnings? New sickness? New chapter in life? haha.. That sums up January..
Feb, i started missing my ex-gf really badly again, in need of a radical change.. Following that, I got my new guitar, thanks to Matt who helped me get it.. And I concluded February with finding a China partner.. Radical enuf? haha
3rd Month, I got addicted to How I Met Your Mother, and never looked back since.. Legend.. Wait for it.. Dary Show.. I also had my very first toe/finger nail coming off! VERY FIRST! Hope chicks dig that like they dig battle scars.. haha.. Then it start to take a turn for the worst becos Karma bite back.. I realised my "perfect" school group mates were really from hell.. Yup, school life was hell all the way after that.. Then if that wasnt bad, on my journey to school, i met another kid from hell, who tormented me.. March wasnt a good month for me..
March ta pao in to April.. I was still suffering in my school work.. Plus another urge to find a change/purpose in my life.. Then I failed my Basic Theory Test and found out that claiming warranty for a graphics card is a total bitch.. Exams began this month as well.. But the mood really, cannot.. I had some problems with a friend(s) as well.. Conclusion -April was a fool..
May.. I found this video that basically said, WOMEN ARE SHALLOW.. No kidding, but it was close to that.. Women find guys more attractive based on their salary.. Saddening news for me, cos I'm not rich.. :( Next, Man Utd lost the title to Chelsea.. :( End of exams!! But the general mood is that I'm pretty over my ex-gf by now, and holding out till the right one.. Then Asia Conference came! My first time in the conference as the previous year i was in NS.. Glad to have went down with Hp, Amos and Matt.. Felt like the old times.. Queuing early and Simpang almost every night as well! You know what, i shall put this down as a good month, just becos of Asia conference..
Mid year already, June.. Got back my results, wasnt satisfied with it.. Felt lousy about myself.. But World Cup started though! So did my airport job.. That sucky airport job.. zzz.. I concluded the month with comparing my cellgroup with Italy in the World Cup.. FYI, Italy played badly in the World Cup.. So yea, get the message? Half Time - Sucky 5 v Good 1
Birthday month! World Cup ended - Spain won! Started ASOS shopping, never looked back also.. hahaha.. POISON! And I confirmed to myself that I'm over my ex-gf.. Right after that, a close friend called me on the phone on my way to work at 5am in the morning, in his/her drunken state, to cry about his/her ex.. It was the first time seeing him/her cry.. It made me hate exes even more.. Birthday! But I din celebrate it.. Celebrations are overrated.. Pretty neutral month, but I'll put it as good, since no bad news is good news..
August already.. Quit the airport job, then began working for Redbull! My school semester restarts as well.. I realised one of my lecturer was an asshole.. And also, I entered Redbull company at the wrong time cos it was the hell month and I worked endless OT hours.. Even went back once on Sat! It was a shag month.. Tempted to put this as a bad month, but I was kinda glad i found Redbull job, so good month..
Wake me up when September ends.. I started with a mini reflection about my life and concluded that I would prob get my next gf at 30yrs old.. Hmm..Still sounds pretty likely.. Next, I had some friendship problems again..And this month was the start of my song compositions as well, cos i had a crush on one of the redbull girls.. hahaha.. Following that, I realised my new "dream team" for school projects, wasnt perfect either, I still had one liability.. But I finally passed my Basic Theory Test! Then the whole cycle of falling hopelessly for a girl repeats.. Wake me up when September ends - rightly so, cos it sucks! Being tormented by the Redbull girl who played hard to get.. Bad month cos of the waiting feeling for my crush..
Reached boiling point while doing one of my projects.. The month was October.. Like blood boiling kinda point.. Next, tried to ask my crush out, but was rejected.. Then I concluded, I'd never sing of love, if it does not exist.. Then I was labelled Emo by my mum first then by my close colleague.. Next, I reached an ultimate low in my church life.. From a happy group of friends in CG, to becoming a lone ranger.. Next, exams began again.. Watch an inspirational speech by Steve Jobs to not settle in any aspect of life.. Then I felt screwed while taking my Corporate accounting paper.. October seems forgettable..
Cold November.. Was MLM-ed by my crush and regretttttttttt.. Totally turned off, it was like having a de-rection.. From crush to MLM Crazy Chick cos she failed the Hot/Crazy scale.. Then my very close colleague left the company as well.. :( Nothing last forever, even Cold November Rain, apt lyrics for the month..
Lastly, December.. My cousin moved in with me becos of some family problems.. I also joined my cousin to play for his soccer team, and playing in a Sunday League come January. Then I got back my results and it spelled A-W-E-S-O-M-E! I also finally changed to a new CG, after almost complaining for the whole year! Now fitting in better already.. Had a sudden strong nostalgia of being in a r/s.. Passed my Advance Theory Test as well, scored full marks! Then lastly the awesome Christmas party at Matt's house! Best month whole year i feel! haha..
Looking back, I realised, I had a bad year! Final score - Sucky 8 v Good 3.. Hahaha.. I mean there were good times, but it seems the bad times were pretty bad this year.. This was the breakthrough year i guess.. The initial struggle before something new.. I hope I'm right as well.. hahaha.. Next year to be much better please! Thank God for optimism.. Thankfully i never really kept looking back during the year, if not, I'm constantly reminded of what a bad year it's been..
First the kidney stones, then still struggling with my ex-gf feelings, first semester of school was a nightmare, got rejected by my crush first, den MLM-ed, the list goes on.. Not to mention friends come and go.. Lost a few close friends.. One good e.g is losing adelene/shuyin that side.. No ones to blame really.. Recently watch a video on Razor TV.. And they were going out in the streets to get people's view on " r/s - does it cause you to lose friendship". And they said that a researcher's findings concluded that a person will have a average of 5 close friends at any present time.. And once the person becomes attached, the number of close friends drops to 3.. Since both adelene and shuyin are attached, I guess we are one of the close friends that are lost in that transition..
But friends come and go.. So no point holding on to something one sided.. When that person simply dun make time for you, it is impossible for things to work out.. I need to find new friends that are worth my time then..
Well, I must really retain this "blind" faith that things will get better, trust God.. If not, I dunno how to live on.. So please God, truly make 2011 great for me this time round.. :)
*Post ended at 3.47am*
*Zero sleep so far.. Dead!*
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