Anyway, was kinda disappointed yesterday.. Service was the family day theme, and I actually invited my sister to come. She actually said she was coming but unfortunately she had to work OT and couldnt come down.. I was kinda hopeful that maybe when she did come, she would rededicate her life to God again.. What more, i felt yesterday's service was a great time to respond to the altar call.. But I guess it was not meant to be.. Well, at least Easter's coming, hope she is able to come then..
I guess that set the whole mood for yesterday.. Disappointment.. I'm not too sure why I am so affected too.. Cos even when my Cg went for a movie, which I couldn't make it, technically cos of my sister as well, i felt down as well even though it was nothing worthwhile.. It was just one of those, "anything can bring you down" day.
The story goes like this, my cg asked me for sat movie , but i couldnt confirm as my sis was maybe coming for sat service.. She only could cfm wif me an hr before svc itself but my cg member booked on sat morning. Bkl I say i going to watch, den later my sis come, den what she do? Or I say me n my sis gg to watch, den she cant make it, den extra ticket how? It just wasnt realistic to confirm my attendance at that time, so in the end, when my sister cfm she cant make it, my cg already booked the tickets, so movie never watched.
It prob din help much with the fact that I am sick again! Seriously, after that one month cough episode and now barely stayed sick-free for a month, and then here I am again, sick with cough! Another dip in my fitness level again! Sian, build up then drop, build up again then drop.. Si bei Sian.. But neh mind, like i said, it was just one of those days where anything can get you down.. So i try to maintain manner..
Today, went for Qing Ming.. Sweep Tomb.. I am one of those not particular about holding joss stick as I believe in my own convictions and the reason I hold them is a sign of respect for the dead and nothing else. But then again, I understand why Christains feel so strongly about not holding them. Can you imagine one day if someone takes a photo of Pastor Kong holding joss stick? Imagine the consequences of that! People start slamming him, etc. Even though like I said, he may hold it out of respect.. But sometimes, intention is never enough.. So, yea, i totally get that..
Anw, I am clueless about half the people that I paid respect to today.. Like really never see before but somehow they are related, but I just cannot remember how are they related. Every year I asked who is that, but the following year I forget. So i dun bother asking anymore.. lol!
The other half are my grandparents and my father.. Really brings back memories. My grandma and grandpa who I'm more familiar with.. Especially my grandpa whom I have a more deeper relationship with cos I was more older when he was still alive.. Then there's my father, whom passed away a few month after I was born.. Every year, visiting his tomb, always makes me wonder, what if? What if he was still alive? How would I turn out to be? Will he be proud of me with what I've achieved so far? But i really think my father very handsome.. I finally took a picture of him this year.. Here it is..
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