It was long overdue...

A song is just a melody wif lyrics.. But a heartfelt song is a melody of love..

I think it's the same with prayer.. Prayer is just using your mouth and talking to God.. But a heartfelt one, is where you use your heart and talk to God..

Right now, i think i have lost faith with people.. Just seeing all the bad sides of everyone.. I really dunno if i can ever find a companion that i can actually relate to.. It doesnt have to be my future gf, even a normal friend will do right now..

I am not one of those that opens up easily nor have a wide circle of friends.. A perfect example of an ideal friendship was during sec 2, when me n nicky were close buddies.. I think i almost went his house almost every week.. Be it playing soccer, cycling to east coast, playing chess.. At that time we even diablo-ed over Ip together.. Those were fun times.. Nowadays, i cant even find a companion to even watch soccer with..

They say relationships need chemistry, i think friendships need as well.. Just that relationships are of a different or higher kind of chemistry.. And i guess it's been awhile since i shared a chemistry with someone.. The last one i had, turned out real bad, like really bad..

I'm not saying my current friends now are bad, but we're just different.. And everyweek it's like coming together doing something that makes everyone comprimises.. I think i can only simply put it this way, I want to have that feeling of wanting to do something, and this other person also wants to do it.. And it's really very difficult finding that someone..

I pray to God, that He will help me find that someone.. From the bottom of my heart..

And it's funny how things have turned out.. I used to complain about something, but now i realised that something was all i had.. I feel alittle dumb, like how did it turn out liddat.. Well, people make their own decisions that determined their life they have, i dont make it for them, so i can see their decision now, that i'm just not part of their lives..

And when i look back, i realised the ones that complain are also as bad as the ones they complained about.. I now regret saying what i said, or judged, cos no one is perfect.. Cos at the end of the day, you must see who are the ones standing with you, and who are the ones that left you alone.. I guess God likes to show you how stupid you are sometimes..