I'm really confused rite now.. I just dunnno what to do anymore.. There's so much thoughts in my head, so much emotions tat i cant subdue anymore... This feelings want to burst out of me and drive me into insanity but my conscience is surpressing them.. I'm feeling horrible.. Its like i'm having two minds in my mind.. Da last thing i need is discouragement or disappointment.. What i really need now is guidance and a clear mind to tink logically and not with all these emotions.. But what can i do.. i'm only human.. I dun wan this to happen as well.. Dun blame me or make me pay anymore.. I cant take it.. the coldness to me is like a knifes stabbing me every second, let the warmth surround me and i'll noe i am safe from everything else........
God help me.. Take away my sorrows, my burdens my tots.. So i can have rest with You, Almighty God..
I guess every1 do have their bad days.. After seeing mat liddat, nvr did i expect myself to be in such a state so fast also.. Maybe i could meet him up and have a pity party.. LOL.. just kidding.. I'll try my best to help him.. Partly why i'm so confused now is probably my reluctance to go face this problem. I mean its not totally becos of dis den i din face da prob, but this would be part of da reason.. I mean every1 will come to a point where u have a difficult choice to make, at 1 hand if u choose option A, u'll have dis and dat consequence which u dun really like but u will get by with life and if u choose option B, u'll love da consequence but u find it difficult to carry it out.. I mean, i'm quite a nice guy... More to my close ones.. And u just hate to be da bad guy but yet sumtimes u ought to be da "bad guy" so dat u can help other people.. How many of u all can say amen to dat? AMEN.. And its hard, really..
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