I'm not okkkkaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy......

Tp destroyed my life.. Yes.. its true.. When i was preparing to go TP, i was a young boy, enthusiastic about accounting, very good at it, topped the whole skool at it, but look at where i am now.. Okay that was crap, all these was due to da fact that i am lazy..

I've been thinking alot on my future and i really want to get a J-O-B that i enjoy.. Frankly speaking, accounting work aint really enjoyable.. If u ask me whats my passion, i would tell you its soccer.. I know i cant be a player, so maybe i can be other personnels.. Like referee, physio, coach.. But da reality is that SIngapore is not a country of football.. And job openings for soccer wld definitely be difficult.. Den again, i haven go research about it, i'm just analyzing in my brain..

SO the question is.. Whats my gift?? Whats my talent??

I soo wanna change CG... Its not my cg fault, but at the same time, i feel its not my fault also.. I cant seem to communicate wif my cg.. Like i really cant talk to any single one.. When i say tallk, i dun mean boring cliche talk like "hows your day?".. I meant like sum1 whom i really share my life wif.. I was talking to Hj abt it, he raised a point about making an effort, if i maked an effort, i cld go beyond cliche talk wif my CGM..

But lets face it, i've been wif this CG for how long already?? More than a year.. And when i was a helper, i tried soo many thousand times to make an effort and talk to them, but it never goes beyond cliche.. So i simply gave up.. I'm tired of cliche talk and i simply want to keep quiet if i got nothing better to say.. I just feel like a square peg and my cg is a triagular hole, and even if i put effort, it will never fit in...

Preharps i never allowed any of my cg members in my life also.. Cos u noe how church ppl are like, and even i was guilty of this last time, when you talk to dem abt problems, they wld give you answers like "God God God", "Jesus Jesus Jesus", "Bible bible bible".. They are simply too "Holy" for me..

And another thing is that, i tink our personalities dun suit each other.. I dun get their jokes, and dey wun get mine.. Simple as that, not that their jokes are not funny, but its just not me.. Maybe this thinking is wrong, maybe it is correct, every man will think he is always right..

God send me a sign!