I wonder why am i in this slump for soo darn long.. If being single now is so pain-hu and tough, i wonder how did i even survive being single for most of my life?? I wanna get back that carefree feeling of single-hood and not having someone who doesnt belong to me, in my head all the time.. It's like past few days, occupied and glad, and one day alone at home, then all emo and messed up.. The cycle is like that all the time.. Damn..
And i have a confession.. I always feel sucky when i see couples on the street.. And the worse thing is, there are couples everywhere on the street!! How, you tell me how.. I guess i'm the biggest fool in the world right now..
Maybe it's NS that prevents me from having a proper social life, then again, maybe it's just my inability to forget you.. I dont wanna fast forward my life to the point where i am totally happy again, i dont wanna end up like adam sandler in the movie "Click".. Forward all the bad and sian moments till you want to rewind also too late.. Live life, even though it may contain bad moments.. Thou now my life is probably something like lectures.. Rather sucky and times take too long to pass..
But i really thank God for the past few days, to have people to go out with.. Cos i run out of movies to watch, and thank God i got my games at the right timing also.. This few days of leave has been good..
I guess right now, i just need to breakthrough right?? I mean just break the vicious cycle of emo state and gather some happy momentum and i'll be a happy man!! Ha!! I wish!!
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