It ends tonight..

I was reminded of you again.. The word cold turkey.. We had to go through a "cold turkey" just to be together.. We seriously couldnt last it cos we were just too eager to see each other.. Secretly emailing and composing songs.. And how Ban Chuan said i was a wood block after trying to dissuade me from getting together with you.. Damn those traditional mindset of church leaders.. I think the way we got together was kinda dramatic, but at the same time meaningful..

Seeing your pics on facebook, makes me feel happy, yet sad.. happy to see you enjoying your life now, sad becos, i'm just an emo scremo creep.. Yes, i wish you two would last forever and stay happy always.. Cos my time is over.. I know it, just trying to accept that..

I think coldplay's fix you lyrics, sums up my feelings now..

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Could it get any worse??

I am thinking of stop blogging for now, cos i think this blog couldnt get any more emo-er.. It has to end here..

Before i end, i just wanna apologise to Amos, sorry man, i really totally forgot my cousin birthday celebration today also.. Cant make it there early..

For now, bye bye blogging.. Till i'm not emo-ing or have some eager stuff to blog..

Signing off
Jerry