Revelation

Dota is the trend.. You are not playing dota?? You aint cool man..

Haha..

Dota-ing almost everyday man.. Friday and sat at kembagan lan shop, sun and mon at home.. Seriously, our cheaper alternative is everyone get a speaker headphone to use skype and play at home.. As for matt, i think u need a new com first..

I think maybe my mouse-keyboard skills not that good.. That's why not good in dota.. But seriously, Dota really requires good timing, teamwork and combi.. There isnt any "best" hero around, almost all can be used to owned people if used correctly.. So guys, let's stop randoming for once and stop this losing streak.. haha..

Cg on friday was pretty weird, cos i dunno why i was nervous playing guitar?? Like really dunno why.. Weird.. And aft cg, i was doing evaluation!! When was the last time i did that sia, maybe 2-3 years ago?? I dunno.. Prob 2 la.. U know, those taking items like games, and testimony n stuff, evaluate aft cg.. that thing.. Gave me a nostalgic feeling..

I know amos n matt, maybe only amos, wld always poke fun at me for being a "helper" in this cg, when really, i just play the guitar.. haha. But i really have a tiny desire to be a helper again.. Do something for God.. But, yeah, a tiny desire, not a burning one.. But i really dunno about this cg, cos i feel the age gap is really there.. I'm at this transiting stage i guess.. From young adult to adult.. Like if i join a adult cg, i wld be like childish there, but in youth cg, i am like mature.. You get the point..

But sat's svc was quite power.. Personal opinion.. I agree wif matt sometimes A.R Benard can make a simple thing overcomplicated.. Like how an apple is termed as a red fruit with seed.. But really, it is just an apple.. But i guess sometimes when you really go into detail what a word really means, you see the true meaning of it, instead of overlooking the simple things.. How a simple word like Idolatry becomes a message from God.. True that i never really go in to detail about that word.. Mention it and i'll prob think of people worshipping an idol.. But what it really meant was to find meaning or security from something..

I really wanna make God my idol and not other things.. You know like how people idolise Ronaldo for his stepovers or Beckham for his freekicks.. They idolise cos it's cool to do it.. It looks good also.. But it's never easy to make God an idol, but then again, it's never easy doing stepovers effectively or bending like beckham.. i really wanna start trying hard at least.. I wanna start reading the bible.. Pray, even the simplest things like saying grace before meals.. I really thought through like how am i gonna survive a 8-5 job and studying after ORD, cos i remember doing attachment for 3 months only, and i was shagged like hell everyday.. Add study time 3 times a week, projects, test and exams.. How?? Really..

The simple truth is, with our strength we are bound to fail, but leaning on God's strength, we can do it.. I never really quite experienced being refreshed in God's presence, like all my fatigue just gone liddat.. Peace and happiness in God's presence, yes, but not the tiredness.. I think i have lived on my own strength long enough.. It's time to let God take over..

May i do the actions and not just talk only.. I'm just afraid i will fail, and back to normal self, cos it's so easy to be where i am now.. Relac only.. And to think of it, i had my ex when i was on fire for God.. And she left when i die down.. I guess it's really true that all things shall be added unto you if you seek the kingdom of God first..

Back to camp.. And exactly two more months to ORD!!