I'm Mr. Brightside

Another sleepless night.. It's nights like this that makes me wanna go "gan f**ked up"..

Going to work tomorrow at Singapore National Eye Centre for a one day kinda job.. Supposed to wake up at 645am, and now it's 2am.. Not sure the time after I end this post, but one things for sure, SHAG TOMORROW!

There are certain things I will never ever understand in my life.. And I dun think I ever will understand them.. Honestly, now my life isnt exactly a smooth sailing ship or a bed of roses.. It isnt exactly Tsunami bad as well.. I guess if I count my blessings, I would probably feel a little better about my situation..

Financial wise, totally cui.. Zero income.. This is happening during my holiday sumore.. What a great time for this to happen.. Totally zero savings now as all my money went to driving lessons and just surviving already.. Just as I had predicted months ago, I would not be needed in Redbull anymore and true enough, I have only been to work once this whole month, even though I am having my holidays now..

Then again, if I count my blessings, my sis is helping to sponsor rest of my driving, while I'm back to taking allowance from my mum.. But I'm prudent about my spending now, eating at home whenever I can and not doing any online shopping anymore.. Plus I can even go China for holidays.. So I'm not that bad..

CG wise, still feels like a stranger even though it's been half a year with the CG.. Even thoughts of changing CG has entered my mind now.. But I dun really wanna entertain those thoughts.. Going through the process of getting to know people again is so tough..

Then again, the CG is really very loving and positive.. Just that it feels like a square peg trying to fit in a circle hole..

Friends wise, we're not as close anymore compared to last time.. From a weekly meet to a monthly or bi-monthly meet up..

Then again, it's not like they are lost forever like how Nicky is.. We're all still open to meeting up whenever free..

Relationship wise, still nothing.. Not even close to anything like a relationship.. Sure there were potential targets, as those closer to me will know.. It looked so optimistic at one point.. Then suddenly, it just dropped to nothing right now.. It was just as I predicted, nothing lasts forever..

Then again, I had experience some sort of "chasing" in the past month or so.. I thank God for it and I told myself to enjoy it while it lasts, which I did.. So no regrets..

Spiritual wise, it's not like I'm back on fire again.. I'm even contemplating if I should go service for the weeks that we are back at JW.. As you all know I'm attending different service from my CG due to soccer commitments.. So I've experienced the "pain" of just going to service and leaving straight after that.. Really not fun.. And it wun be any more fun when service is at JW..

Then again, I have started to "purify" myself by getting rid of sins in my life.. I know God sees it.. I know he is pleased with me.. That is enough for me already..

So really, many things I can complain about..Then again, many things I can thank God for.. Shall I look at my situations half empty, or half full? Saying it is easy, but I'll do my best to look on the bright side, cos I'm Mr. Brightside..

One of nicer songs of this world..  The Killers - Mr Brightside



Enjoy!