F**king perfect

What if the one thing you enjoy doing the most turns out to be the thing that brings your life down? What would you do then? Stop doing it and feel like you've lost a part of your life? Or keep doing it and risk seeing your life go down the gutter?

Maybe I'm overthinking and being oversensitive.. But I feel that God is telling me to stop playing soccer.. One sign is the countless Saturday morning rains.. Cos I have 2 games to play at least on Saturdays now.. One street soccer in the morning and another field match in the afternoon.. Normally if it rains in the morning both games would be ruined.. Cos if it rains, the street soccer court doenst have shelter and the field would be water logged and becomes unplayable for the field match..

Now it so happens that it has been raining every Saturday morning! Exactly at the time I'm suppose to start/play soccer sumore.. And the weird thing is that, it may not even rain at all during the whole week, but the moment it's Saturday morning, you will start seeing dark clouds and after that rain already.. It's one of those, "too much of a coincidence" things already..

And it happened again today! Rained at 7am today but stopped just in time for my street soccer game.. So it looks like all set to go for street soccer.. But the field match was cancelled due to water logged pitch from the morning rain.. Happy only, at least enjoy street soccer.. Then something worst than the rain happened, I sprained my ankle.. And not the kind where you walk it off then you can carry on, it's those, lasting and need recuperation kind.. Sian!

I could also add that I saw my friend's ankle cui the previous week also.. Maybe it's a warning to me.. And when I din heed it, I sprained my ankle.. And the way I sprained it, it's not one of those, opponent was reckless then I kanna.. It's the damn lame kind.. I attempted to roll the ball forward, twice! But the ball seemed to be stuck to the ground, just a normal flat ground, and the second time I tried to roll the ball, my ankle got caught in an awkward angle with the ball when I tried to move forward.. Straight away I knew then, my ankle is a goner.. That is how lame it is.. And I was supposed to play soccer 3 times today sumore, all ruined by the ankle..

This rain thing started when I decided not to go service at Jurong West since it's so far.. And even though this week they moved back to Suntec, I wasnt considering going back cos I chose soccer over service.. But the sprained ankle spoiled all my soccer plans, cos I cannot play already! In the end, I went service..

So really, isnt it too much of a coincidence all this nonsense started the moment I decided to choose soccer over service? Or am I being over sensitive? You tell me..

Plus it's already bad that I chose soccer over service on Sunday already, and now I feel like a total stranger in my cellgroup.. Even when my cellgroup members that are going Saturday service today and ask to sit with me since I'm a Saturday service goer in the cellgroup, I told them I wasnt going service and sat with Hp and Matt by ourselves instead.. It's really from bad to worst already.. Like really, the word to describe my situation is "Cui".. Haiz..

Can I just pretend my life is f**king perfect then?