I'm like depressed now man.. Just two nights ago i was jogging wif mat, and it felt great to be jogging again after being sidelined with my injury for close to 2 months now.. Den yst nite, aft cg, i wanted to go jog again.. After 1 round around my park, my leg couldnt take it.. Its wasnt my stamina at fault, my leg was pain.. I guess my leg still cant make it yet.. My dream of coming back to play on Oct 21 seems to be over..
I tink ppl still dun believe my leg is really still injured. For e.g during CG yst, they played a game where they attached ballons to their leg, and da aim is to defend ur balloon and step on other ppl's balloon.. Well i told dem i din 1 2 play cos of my leg, i genuinely believed it wasnt a good game for my leg, wat if ppl step my leg how?? So when i said i still injured, dey gave me da "u are just lazy" face.. If only they can step in my shoes and feel how bad my leg is.. Da feeling totally sucks when u noe u r telling da truth and ppl dun believe.. U tink i wun 1 my leg to be perfectly alrite?? I rather play dat lame cg game, and still can play soccer, but now, i cant..
Well da only consolation i get is at least my friends believe every single word i say abt me leg.. I was just tokin to mat lim online a few days ago.. He's coming back from Aussie and asked if dis sat got soccer.. I told him i wouldnt noe cos i still injured.. I told him i aim to come back on 21st Oct.. He TOTALLY believed me and sympathise for me also.. Told me to take care dun over strain my leg in order to come back on 21st Oct.. I mean this guy hasnt seen me for maybe a month?? And he's overseas, but when i say my leg still injured.. TOTALLY believed.. For my cg members, i told dem i injured, dey give me da "dun act la" face.. Seeing is believing.. but it doesnt apply to my friends and cg man.. My friends nvr see, yet they believed, my cg can see,but dun believe.. Now u noe why friends are so impt?? I'm not like saying my whole cg is liddat.. Prob hoyin, roll and tim believed cos before da cg i was just showing dem my leg still swollen.. But others din see.. So i cant really blame dem also.. But at da same time, mat lim din see also, but yet he believed.. Dat my friend, is da diff between a friend n cg member.. Well, all my friends noe i'm so waiting to come back and kick soccer man.. They tell me encouraging stuff like take care of ur leg.. Mat tan even followed me to jog.. Its really very encouraging and blessed to have this kind of friends by ur side..
Da surprising thing abt my leg is dat, its still swollen.. And when i ask my mum, she ask me to go see that chinese physician who "tortured" me.. I mean, i went to 3 diff docs and i'm still liddat.. Plus the chinese physician is da one who told me i got a "hairline fracture".. I mean, i really believed him, cos my leg really felt as if it is fractured.. But da x-ray showed nothing.. What am i to do? Its hard to go back to a doctor who gives u a wrong diagnosis rite.. Yet at da same time i want my leg to recover, but i also dunno what to do or where to go for help.. If only i had sum friend who was a leg specialist or sumthing.. Everything will be solved..
I so wish to be playing soccer now.. From da bottom of my heart.. I cant even wait to start jogging properly.. It really frustrates me and dampens my mood to not be able to do what i really 1 2 do..
To all da ppl dat dun believe my leg is not alrite.. Bless you..
To all da ppl dat believe my leg is not alrite.. Love you..
Sorry this is rather a emo post cos i'm really frustrated with the condition of my leg.. I rather exercise den lie on da couch all day..
Thanks to all my friends who stick by me!
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